CHRISTmas '07

my very own specialized christmas cards....and the effort (and pains) invested for each.

may ganung ugali lang siguro tlga ko na when i give cards/notes to special persons or those that are close to me, gusto ko personalized. pinaghirapan. pinag-isipan. pinagtuunan ng pansin. binigyan ng time. maybe because i feel special when i receive such and so i also want them to feel the same way? that i want them to know how special they are to me? that or is it just that the frustrated "artist" in me wants to be freed?

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anyways, i made specialized cards for my officemates that i'm close to and took pics of the final outcome. here are my top picks... (note: below are taken from a camphone only. mas maganda ung color in actual, syempre. :D)

and the complete set....

i sent to some a message that spelled out their name. while, due to lack of time and the headache that was about to start, i made one message for the rest. a message that relays the essence of Christmas this time.

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"amidst the grandeur of this season - the colorful decors, the gift-givings, the preparations and all - may we never forget the birthday celebrator Himself: JESUS CHRIST. May we all spend this holiday with Him, even the days after. He loves you so much that He offered His own life. merry, merry CHRISTmas! much love, jing"

ung concept ng card, di mahirap isipin. ung messages for them, medyo nakakapiga ng utak ung message na ini-spell out pa ung names nila. pero ang pinakamahirap tlga e ung pagsunog ng katol sa sides ng paper. sakit sa ulo dahil sa amoy, sa kamay dahil sa paso, sa paa dahil sa pag-upo sa sariling binti. almost 5 hours ko sinunog ung 11 sheets of paper. 4+ grueling hours!!! beat that!

CHRISTMAS '07.

we went to La Union, me, ar, len and my dad, and celebrated the Christmas there. first time na wala kme sa house. baguio was not as cold as i had expected it to be. parang mas nagchi-chill pa ko sa office. but the thing that makes baguio better is the breeze. sa office kse, walang breeze. at masyadong OA ung pagkalamig ng aircon ha. di na rin nakakatuwa minsan. haha.

snapshots in baguio:

seeing the homeless sleeping in the streets and the beggars asking alms made me feel sooo blessed, thank You, Lord, but at the same time sad. my heart just goes out for them. hay. di bale, sabi naman sa bible e mas malapit silang mahihirap sa puso ni Lord e. that's too much a consolation though. para na rin silang nanalo sa sweepstakes nun, in a major way.

we went home on the 29th. and attended a Christmas party later that night of the same day. grrrabe ang traffic!!! exagg ha! OA! pati gifts na nareceive ko din e OA sa dami! haha!

this year would have been a perfect year for me. everything sailed smoothly. except for the misquote that amounted to a total of Php 280K. and i can blame no one but me. lesson learned: never, NEVER quote undocumented. you'll never know kung sino ang nagkamali. so kahit di ako sigurado na ako ang mali, e inamin ko na rin. kase in the first place, dapat di ako nagquote ng wala pa kong black & white na nareceive na quote from supplier. kahit gaano pa katindi ang pressure na binibigay ng sales para hintayin ung quote mo. kahit gaano pa sila nagmamadali at fina-follow up ka na. kahit ano pang piga ang gawin sayo. HUWAG.

what's good though in this case was that it happened during this season. di naman ako napagalitan o nasigawan. the spirit of christmas was still in the air. although alam kong talagang nakaka-down naman din ung bagay na un. i felt so helpless that time. so guilty. seeing my superior and our pm ironing things out when it was MY fault. MY own gawddang mistake. iniyak ko, oo. binitbit ko ung bigat ng feeling, oo. nadala ko kahit pano nung bakasyon. and it'll take a matter of time for me to feel all alright. really alright. sabi nga ng avp namen, "tao lng naman e. nagkakamali din. basta wag na lng mauulit."

basta wag na mauulit. that i have to bear in mind. that i have to carry all throughout my working days here.

and like i said, despite every downs, it's still a merry, merry Christmas!!! cheers!

09176637754, i miss you

i've so always prided myself for being able to maintain ONE celphone number eversince i got hold of my first cp. and it was like 7 or 8 years ago. and only a few can do that, imo. ung iba kase nawalan ng cp, nasnatch-an, nahold-up, nadukutan among others. at kasama na syempre ung sim nila dun.

i've lived my 7-8 years using the same number....come to memorize the easy numbers by heart and by soul. and i had not the slightest idea that on the night of dec 10, i would have to bid my saaad-bye to it. *deep sigh*

i lost a cp of myself for the very first time. stupid carelessness. i was saddened, of course. it's not about losing the phone itself actually coz it's not like the latest model after all, aside from the fact that i'd had it for like 2+ years (?) hence it's so high time to be replaced. not about the numbers stored there for i have the copy of the important ones in my chikka. not about the pictures for i have also a copy of almost all of those in cd and hd. not even about the messages. then what the heck the panghihinayang is all about? it's the SIM, dude. the NUMBER!!! argh! nakasama ko, pinahalagahan and minahal ko ung number na un sa pito-o-walong taon ng buhay ko. yun yun eh! babaw ba?!?

anyways, now, i will have to love and memorize by heart and by soul again a new number which, by the way, is still unknown to me. i still haven't bought myself a new cp for i don't have yet a particular model that i desire. kainis kase! what i was planning to give myself this christmas is a digicam. a red sony t200. tagal kong nagcanvass, mabusising tumingin ng specs ng bawat digicam kase gusto ko, pag bibili ako ng isang bagay that really costs some deal of money, e gusto ko yung magtatagal saken. yung hinde ko pagsasawaan at papalitan. yung tipong pwede ko ng makasama 'til its "non-functioning" time...'til its last click. yung tipong laspag na, di na ma-ON ever unless na nga lng na may mangyaring inevitable circumstances na malalayo/mawawala yun saken. ganyan ako ka-metikulosa bumili ng isang mahalaga and may halagang bagay. so malamang sa pagpili ng cp, e ganun din. not unless i settle for something na "pwede na," which i think will most likely to happen. kase di naman talaga bagong cp ang dinedesire ko this christmas kundi isang digicam. isang red sony t200 na digicam.

oh well, siguro the best way to end this post is to finally say these words:

"merry" christmas to me (in a gudlak-na-lng-saken tone) and bye-bye, 09176637754.

realization 101

"time doesn't make you forget. it just numbs the pain and blurs the memories until such time the pain fades away."

a writer once said that. simple saying and yet so true. yes, we will never forget our playmate who cheated us, the first time we slipped and the wound, our failed grade/s, the teacher who embarassed us, the loves that hurt us, the bosses we hate, our first failure. all those are etched in a part of our brain and yes, they still cross our minds once in a while. but don't we just find it amazing how those pains seem to not affect us now, even a bit, when back then we even wished that our own world would end?

time doesn't make us forget. it just numbs the pain blah-blah-blah...

wow. truly amazing.

(travel time just gives us time to think. and ponder. and above entry is a result of such.)