we weren't expecting a member of the family to be away from us. i mean like a million miles and over seas away from us. it's so sad to live that far from persons you had shared all your life with.
hay. i'll miss them terribly.
i've always thought nothing could beat the hurt of break-ups or heartbreaks. but then, this is more saddening. kakalungkot lng sobra dahil buong buhay mo silang nakasama at ngyon ang layu-layo na nila. di ko na malalaro si josh. di ko na mafi-feel ung kiss nya sa pisngi ko. i can't bring him anymore little pasalubongs and i won't hear again his "tinchu" (thank u) everytime. i'll miss his voice, his little arms, his naughtiness and his badness.
si zel, mami-miss ko ang mga balita nya kng anong mga damit ang for sale. ang pagkanta nya ng "every little thing he does is magic" everytime na nagvivideoke kame. di nawawala kase ung song na un sa listahan nya ng kakantahin. mamimiss ko ang mallings, at kung saan-saan naming pinupuntahan. pati si jovil. ung lagi nya saming panlilibre at ung mga nakakatawang banat nya minsan. tsaka ung kabaitan nya. kulang na ang darating na holidays kse wla sila.
hay. ang daming bagay na nakaka-miss and kung iisa-isahin ko pa un e maiiyak na lng tlga ko. kalungkot. kse years ang bibilangin para makasama sila at maulit muli ang lahat ng un. kase simula ngayon, sa monitor ng computer na lng namen muna sila makikita. di mo mayayakap, di mo maki-kiss, di mo makakasama sa bawat araw. :'(
i just hope that neither time nor distance could ever change the way we were. i love you, three!
Friday, August 31, 2007
Thursday, August 23, 2007
aysus!!!
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
one kilig moment
putek! bat ganun? pag crush mo isang tao, di ka makaarte ng normal? you can look normal on the surface but there's really something iba within. o baka ako lng ang ganito?
ah syet! kase we just crossed paths. si 210, my secret crush. if it were any other guy but him, i would've made the first move to say hello. or any friendly greeting that could initiate a little conversation. pero parang nag-iiba ko kapag sya nasasalubong ko eh. di naman sa lhat ng instances pero most of the time i'd say. and ung crossing kanina e isa sa mga most-of-the-times.
hay jingtot.
so un. i was glad na binati naman nya ko.
jing. bat ka naka neck tie?
ah syet! he and his endearing voice. darn it!!!! parang gusto kong ihinto ang oras at kausapin sya. at sandaling kalimutan na off-limit sya. pero di tlga mabubura yang lintek na factor na un ih! errrrr!
wla lang. trip ko lng! *in my usual lively voice, which is so opposite his soft voice*
ganun lng kaiksi. ganun lng kabilis. pero ang aftermath nun e nagtatagal. ung kilig tuwing maiisip mo e anjan pa rin.
kainis ka tlga jing! kakainis!!! pero kinikilig ako. at un ung syet dun ih!!!
ah syet! kase we just crossed paths. si 210, my secret crush. if it were any other guy but him, i would've made the first move to say hello. or any friendly greeting that could initiate a little conversation. pero parang nag-iiba ko kapag sya nasasalubong ko eh. di naman sa lhat ng instances pero most of the time i'd say. and ung crossing kanina e isa sa mga most-of-the-times.
hay jingtot.
so un. i was glad na binati naman nya ko.
jing. bat ka naka neck tie?
ah syet! he and his endearing voice. darn it!!!! parang gusto kong ihinto ang oras at kausapin sya. at sandaling kalimutan na off-limit sya. pero di tlga mabubura yang lintek na factor na un ih! errrrr!
wla lang. trip ko lng! *in my usual lively voice, which is so opposite his soft voice*
ganun lng kaiksi. ganun lng kabilis. pero ang aftermath nun e nagtatagal. ung kilig tuwing maiisip mo e anjan pa rin.
kainis ka tlga jing! kakainis!!! pero kinikilig ako. at un ung syet dun ih!!!
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
sleep-deprived
i had been busy and had consumed a lot of energy these past days that i haven't really gotten around doing my favorite pastime: sleeping.
now my head is killing me. i am in the direst need of a sleep and i still have 15 more minutes before i gotta get out from this office. oh God, how i long to be on my bed right now and give myself the doze i so badly needed.
my head aches. ho-hum.
now my head is killing me. i am in the direst need of a sleep and i still have 15 more minutes before i gotta get out from this office. oh God, how i long to be on my bed right now and give myself the doze i so badly needed.
my head aches. ho-hum.
and because i'm such a trying hard writer.....
There are only two tendencies that happen when we entertain new souls in our lives…
1) we still live life the way we have been living it, or
2) we live life under a whole new light and things are never the same again.
And often, we choose to befriend only those who conform with our lifestyle than those who change it. Why? Because deep inside us is a well overflowing with fear of change. (Feb. 8, 2007)
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In one’s life, there is always that “the one that got away”. It might be a job…a dream…a someone…a love. All our efforts to bring them back are to no avail. Coz sometimes, there are no rewinds, no second chances. Some things are bound to happen only once. And it’s so easy to say to be very careful of what you have now. But the hard truth is that sometimes…you’ll never know that it’s the one ‘til it’s gone. (Feb. 11, 2007)
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Life’s constant struggle: what you WANT to do versus what you HAVE to do. HEART against MIND in most cases. And whatever is the outcome, whether which one wins and which one loses, this course opens up our eyes to only one fact –- that the toughest battle one ever has to fight is the battle with his own self…coz no matter what side prevails, in one way or another, he will end up wounded. (Feb. 14, 2007)
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You know why God created man with only ONE heart?........For him to love only ONE soul. (Mar. 11, 2007)
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You are the driver of your own journey, the captain of your own destiny. And sometimes, I find it bull to believe that some things are not meant to be. For if you REALLY want something, you’ll do everything to have it. the not-meant-to-be things? You friggin’ make them meant. Unconsciously, it’s just ourselves that make things not meant. (Mar. 27, 2007)
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We can never stop the sands in the hourglass from flowing, nor can we rush it. But we can always watch the flow in awe and consider each and every little sand as precious -- because a moment in time was, is and will never be like the other. (Aug. 21, 2007)
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All written by moi. :D
1) we still live life the way we have been living it, or
2) we live life under a whole new light and things are never the same again.
And often, we choose to befriend only those who conform with our lifestyle than those who change it. Why? Because deep inside us is a well overflowing with fear of change. (Feb. 8, 2007)
---
In one’s life, there is always that “the one that got away”. It might be a job…a dream…a someone…a love. All our efforts to bring them back are to no avail. Coz sometimes, there are no rewinds, no second chances. Some things are bound to happen only once. And it’s so easy to say to be very careful of what you have now. But the hard truth is that sometimes…you’ll never know that it’s the one ‘til it’s gone. (Feb. 11, 2007)
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Life’s constant struggle: what you WANT to do versus what you HAVE to do. HEART against MIND in most cases. And whatever is the outcome, whether which one wins and which one loses, this course opens up our eyes to only one fact –- that the toughest battle one ever has to fight is the battle with his own self…coz no matter what side prevails, in one way or another, he will end up wounded. (Feb. 14, 2007)
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You know why God created man with only ONE heart?........For him to love only ONE soul. (Mar. 11, 2007)
---
You are the driver of your own journey, the captain of your own destiny. And sometimes, I find it bull to believe that some things are not meant to be. For if you REALLY want something, you’ll do everything to have it. the not-meant-to-be things? You friggin’ make them meant. Unconsciously, it’s just ourselves that make things not meant. (Mar. 27, 2007)
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We can never stop the sands in the hourglass from flowing, nor can we rush it. But we can always watch the flow in awe and consider each and every little sand as precious -- because a moment in time was, is and will never be like the other. (Aug. 21, 2007)
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All written by moi. :D
Monday, August 20, 2007
happy-busy on a 3-day weekend
one thing i love about her excellency is her infamous 3-day long weekend just so to establish strong family bond. oh, lovely! and it’s heaven for us if a holiday falls on a sunday, a monday or a tuesday. that will automatically mean a long vacation, a long rest, a quality time with family.
anyways, this month blessed us with a two 3-day weekend consecutively. the first one was over. i was actually looking forward for a plentiful rest but circumstances prevented such. on a normal rest day, you’ll find me splurging the afternoons in the bedroom, tucked between pillows loving the afternoon naps. but not this time. not when you have a couple of movies you want to watch and not when one of your sister dearies will be spending god knows how many years over seas, away from home, in no more than 2 weeks’ time. family bonding, at this time, is most necessary, most needed, and most wanted. and thanks heaven for giving us this privilege.
time for recaps.
aug. 17, stormy friday……courtesy of egay. prelude to the long weekend ahead. spent the night at g-squared, ortigas dampa. we literally feasted over the scrumptious seafoods: the crabs, the sugpos, the sinigang na maya-maya, the inihaw na tilapia, the inihaw na tanigue, mangga’t bagoong! whew, having heavy dinners delight a gluttonous yet slim me. that’s the major advantage of being slim since birth. you can eat a LOT without having to worry about the pounds it will add to you. in fact, you’ll be thankful for it pa. and i thank you.
aug. 18, rainy saturday. with my two also-purtty sisters. went to the east of metro. did some grocery shopping. i watched alone the “a love story” while my siblings went to see “rush hour 3”. did a li’l window-shopping for ourselves and real-shopping for josh. zel bought her suitcase.
aug. 19, half-sunny-half-rainy sunday. church in the morning. pinoy cuisine for lunch at chef islaw. “rush hour 3” time for me. more bonding with josh. zel and jovil’s despedida in the evening at hebron.
aug. 20, fine-weathered monday. went to gate 2 in the morning. grocery-shopping again in the east of metro with ate rose. cleaned up the house soon as we got home in preparation for zel and jovil’s despedida again for relatives and close friends. gave a hand in the kitchen every now and then. entertained the few guests. magic sing time!!!!
pagod at super-saya. if i were to describe the recent weekend in two words.
anyways, this month blessed us with a two 3-day weekend consecutively. the first one was over. i was actually looking forward for a plentiful rest but circumstances prevented such. on a normal rest day, you’ll find me splurging the afternoons in the bedroom, tucked between pillows loving the afternoon naps. but not this time. not when you have a couple of movies you want to watch and not when one of your sister dearies will be spending god knows how many years over seas, away from home, in no more than 2 weeks’ time. family bonding, at this time, is most necessary, most needed, and most wanted. and thanks heaven for giving us this privilege.
time for recaps.
aug. 17, stormy friday……courtesy of egay. prelude to the long weekend ahead. spent the night at g-squared, ortigas dampa. we literally feasted over the scrumptious seafoods: the crabs, the sugpos, the sinigang na maya-maya, the inihaw na tilapia, the inihaw na tanigue, mangga’t bagoong! whew, having heavy dinners delight a gluttonous yet slim me. that’s the major advantage of being slim since birth. you can eat a LOT without having to worry about the pounds it will add to you. in fact, you’ll be thankful for it pa. and i thank you.
aug. 18, rainy saturday. with my two also-purtty sisters. went to the east of metro. did some grocery shopping. i watched alone the “a love story” while my siblings went to see “rush hour 3”. did a li’l window-shopping for ourselves and real-shopping for josh. zel bought her suitcase.
aug. 19, half-sunny-half-rainy sunday. church in the morning. pinoy cuisine for lunch at chef islaw. “rush hour 3” time for me. more bonding with josh. zel and jovil’s despedida in the evening at hebron.
aug. 20, fine-weathered monday. went to gate 2 in the morning. grocery-shopping again in the east of metro with ate rose. cleaned up the house soon as we got home in preparation for zel and jovil’s despedida again for relatives and close friends. gave a hand in the kitchen every now and then. entertained the few guests. magic sing time!!!!
pagod at super-saya. if i were to describe the recent weekend in two words.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
the two words that i feel
hay, Lord. i've got soooo much to thank You for. here are just some of the things (at random order):
1) for taking me here in this computer company
2) for all the free foods i get to eat
3) for the nice friends around my working area
4) for a nice boss
5) for the first bonus i will receive dis coming sat (i don't know yet how many percent but thank You nevertheless)
6) for gradually making my thyroid back to its normal state
7) for giving me hope when things seem so hopeless
8) for giving me enough faith to make some of my dreams come true
9) for always being there.....ready to listen and to help
10) for not tiring of me
11) for the salvation
12) for making me know You more and intimately
13) for all the lessons i need to learn for my own growth
14) for the family that i have
15) for all the blessings You give to those i love
16) for the daily miracles which i've seen and also those which i had overlooked
and the list could go on and on......it will never end. for Your grace is abundant. hay Lord. i just wanna thank You but words just aren't enough to convey what i really feel deep inside. but You know my heart and i just wanna say again these two words: Thank You.
1) for taking me here in this computer company
2) for all the free foods i get to eat
3) for the nice friends around my working area
4) for a nice boss
5) for the first bonus i will receive dis coming sat (i don't know yet how many percent but thank You nevertheless)
6) for gradually making my thyroid back to its normal state
7) for giving me hope when things seem so hopeless
8) for giving me enough faith to make some of my dreams come true
9) for always being there.....ready to listen and to help
10) for not tiring of me
11) for the salvation
12) for making me know You more and intimately
13) for all the lessons i need to learn for my own growth
14) for the family that i have
15) for all the blessings You give to those i love
16) for the daily miracles which i've seen and also those which i had overlooked
and the list could go on and on......it will never end. for Your grace is abundant. hay Lord. i just wanna thank You but words just aren't enough to convey what i really feel deep inside. but You know my heart and i just wanna say again these two words: Thank You.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Secret Crush
i like the way he speaks my name. so gentle. i felt like a baby in a cradle. but then again, he really speaks gently naman e, with or without saying my name. soft-spoken talaga siya. so maybe i'm just seeing things that are not really there. people are like that so this is just normal. pag crush mo isang tao, simpleng bagay lang may malalim na kahulugan na sa yo. kahit ang totoo e wala lng talaga yun at ganun din naman siya sa iba. crush mo nga kase. so you add and/or minus (but more on adding) figments of your imagination in all your encounters with him/her.
hay crush. 26 nako at crush pa rin ang binabanggit ko. grow up pare!
pero ganun talaga eh. if something makes you smile, why would you hinder that one thing? so long as you're not hurting someone along the way. so long as you're not stepping across the boundaries. so long as you know how to be off-limits with him. kung di lang sana sya "off-limit" maybe i would brave all the risks. pero di ganun ung sitwasyon. so hanggang crush crush nga lng tlga. simpleng hi's and hellos, nods and smiles and exchanges of little conversations where half of those is even work-related. oh well, ganun man kasimple yung mga yun, nakakadagdag pa rin nang malaki sa kulay ng buhay. nakakapagpasaya. nakakapagpangiti. at oo, nakakapagpakilig. haha!
kung pwede nga lng sanang maging permanente na lng sya sa buhay ko. para permanente na ung ngiti at para wala ng bawal-bawal. kaya nga lng, as i've said, hinde ganun ung equation eh, kase isa syang "constant factor" sa isang parte ng equation na un. nagkataon lng na hinde sa parte ko. and ang "cannot be, borrow one from two" e di rin applicable pare.
so eto. hanggang secret crush ka lng. kaya manghinayang ka! hahaha.
hay crush. 26 nako at crush pa rin ang binabanggit ko. grow up pare!
pero ganun talaga eh. if something makes you smile, why would you hinder that one thing? so long as you're not hurting someone along the way. so long as you're not stepping across the boundaries. so long as you know how to be off-limits with him. kung di lang sana sya "off-limit" maybe i would brave all the risks. pero di ganun ung sitwasyon. so hanggang crush crush nga lng tlga. simpleng hi's and hellos, nods and smiles and exchanges of little conversations where half of those is even work-related. oh well, ganun man kasimple yung mga yun, nakakadagdag pa rin nang malaki sa kulay ng buhay. nakakapagpasaya. nakakapagpangiti. at oo, nakakapagpakilig. haha!
kung pwede nga lng sanang maging permanente na lng sya sa buhay ko. para permanente na ung ngiti at para wala ng bawal-bawal. kaya nga lng, as i've said, hinde ganun ung equation eh, kase isa syang "constant factor" sa isang parte ng equation na un. nagkataon lng na hinde sa parte ko. and ang "cannot be, borrow one from two" e di rin applicable pare.
so eto. hanggang secret crush ka lng. kaya manghinayang ka! hahaha.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
raindrops keep fallin' on my head....(and i love it!)
there are just some people who love the rain. and i used to wonder why. i mean, what's with the rain that they love? you get soaked en route to office, school or wherever you're going, and your feet, oh your feet (!), are oh-so wet as well. and then you begin to mind the "contents" of the H2O that soaked you: the poo-poohs of the strayed cats and dogs, the human "trash" (saliva, urine, etc), the "sauce" of the actual garbages, and every eowy trashy thing one could ever imagine. and then you have a hard time trying to get a ride, be stranded in the traffic. you arrive late in the office looking like a wet rug doll. you begin to curse the rain and all.....wondering why some people out there are loving the downpour. that was the rain for me. i defined it in those friggin' ways.
and now i don't know why. one rainy day, i just woke up lovin' what i hated before. i w
as knee-soaked while the other body parts are just wet yet i am still so demn happy! what and why on earth? i precisely don't know. i just began to love the coldness and the chill it gives me. i love embracing the warmth the jacket offers me and at the same time loving the rainy breeze and the damp air brushing my face. i can now hum happily walking through the rain. it's weird and i don't know but from this day forth, rain has become a wonderful season to me. rainy days don't get me down 'nymore....
as knee-soaked while the other body parts are just wet yet i am still so demn happy! what and why on earth? i precisely don't know. i just began to love the coldness and the chill it gives me. i love embracing the warmth the jacket offers me and at the same time loving the rainy breeze and the damp air brushing my face. i can now hum happily walking through the rain. it's weird and i don't know but from this day forth, rain has become a wonderful season to me. rainy days don't get me down 'nymore....
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