(below is a clip from my "Present State" post dated Aug. 23, 2005 from my now-defunct friendster blog, Innermost Thoughts)
"had lost 6 lbs the past month. but already gained the 2 lbs. 4 more lbs to go. funny how i am surrounded with people desperate to lose weight while here i am trying to gain the pounds others would be so happy to lose!!! oh yeah. that's just how life goes!"
now, fast-forward to Oct. 29, 2011. being reminded of my old state makes me smile. i was just 94 lbs that time for i lost 6 lbs 'coz i got sick. 94 lbs!!! i can't believe it! i was sooo skinny then that i always included this line in my prayer before meal -- Lord, sana po magpataba po 'to sa katawan ko. haha! imagine that??? and now, i'm trying my very hard to NOT gain another pound. it's a SIN!!! haha! in 2005, NEVER have i ever imagined myself wanting to lose weight. the "diet" and "exercise" words were so alien to me. now, every big food intake is equivalent to 10-20 minute exercise. life couldn't be more ironic, eh?
yeah, i am not fat but 110-112 lbs is my ideal weight. it's the maximum so i must maintain that level. it's okay if i lose some more lbs but to gain even a pound is, as i had said, a sin. so there. that's my present state now. :D
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Friday, October 28, 2011
An Hour of a Wonderful Journey
(a July 4, 2006 post from my now-defunct friendster blog, Innermost Thoughts)
Last night, I was searching for some quotes by Ralph Waldo Emerson, Mark Twain & others that I had written in one of my journals. Little did I know that my searching would take me to a journey to the past.
I was flipping through the pages of my diary, looking for the quotes. I was not able to find them. What I found instead is myself caught up in a different time. I stumbled across the baduy poems that I made during college days...the "basketball court" times in my latter years in college and even after I graduated...the texts (forwarded and personal) that I had jotted down which I would like myself to be reminded of in the future (which happened to be last night)...all the places that I'd been, who I was with, the little acts and feelings of the moment -- from the mundane little details of everyday life to the wonderful, unforgettable moments. I was flipping through the pages, just skimming the notes. smiling time and again for the past troubles, downfalls and pains and smiling even more for the PRICELESS moments. Flipping, skimming, smiling. Now stretch that out to 1 hour.
It is indeed nice to be reminded of your past once in a while. But as what they say, all things come to an end. The journey lasted for an hour. I knew I had to end it when my face became quite itchy of the dust my old diaries possess (haha!) and when my head felt quite dizzy being deprived of an early rest. So I closed my diaries and sealed the journey with one sigh. And one smile.
I was only looking for the quotes but I found fond memories instead. I was only looking for the quotes but the vague memories of the past became vivid all of a sudden. I was only looking for the quotes and the past came dancing alive in front of my very eyes. I was only looking for the quotes...... Deeeeep sigh. One smile.
And lying on my bed, getting the sleep that I need, another hour was spent though for the aftermath...the "hang-over." I was half-asleep. Or maybe was half-awake. Half-unconscious. Or maybe half-conscious. Whichever. Thoughts came rushing in. The ramblings and all. The past...they are but just words now written on a diary...one smile...the ramblings again...the past...they are but just plain memories now stored in the memory bin...one sigh...one smile...more ramblings...the past...now they were just a history...one deep sigh...one smile...the ramblings again. Tomorrow would be another day. A part of the future I have yet to live. Ramblings...ramblings...ramblings. It was then I finally dozed off.
Last night, I was searching for some quotes by Ralph Waldo Emerson, Mark Twain & others that I had written in one of my journals. Little did I know that my searching would take me to a journey to the past.
I was flipping through the pages of my diary, looking for the quotes. I was not able to find them. What I found instead is myself caught up in a different time. I stumbled across the baduy poems that I made during college days...the "basketball court" times in my latter years in college and even after I graduated...the texts (forwarded and personal) that I had jotted down which I would like myself to be reminded of in the future (which happened to be last night)...all the places that I'd been, who I was with, the little acts and feelings of the moment -- from the mundane little details of everyday life to the wonderful, unforgettable moments. I was flipping through the pages, just skimming the notes. smiling time and again for the past troubles, downfalls and pains and smiling even more for the PRICELESS moments. Flipping, skimming, smiling. Now stretch that out to 1 hour.
It is indeed nice to be reminded of your past once in a while. But as what they say, all things come to an end. The journey lasted for an hour. I knew I had to end it when my face became quite itchy of the dust my old diaries possess (haha!) and when my head felt quite dizzy being deprived of an early rest. So I closed my diaries and sealed the journey with one sigh. And one smile.
I was only looking for the quotes but I found fond memories instead. I was only looking for the quotes but the vague memories of the past became vivid all of a sudden. I was only looking for the quotes and the past came dancing alive in front of my very eyes. I was only looking for the quotes...... Deeeeep sigh. One smile.
And lying on my bed, getting the sleep that I need, another hour was spent though for the aftermath...the "hang-over." I was half-asleep. Or maybe was half-awake. Half-unconscious. Or maybe half-conscious. Whichever. Thoughts came rushing in. The ramblings and all. The past...they are but just words now written on a diary...one smile...the ramblings again...the past...they are but just plain memories now stored in the memory bin...one sigh...one smile...more ramblings...the past...now they were just a history...one deep sigh...one smile...the ramblings again. Tomorrow would be another day. A part of the future I have yet to live. Ramblings...ramblings...ramblings. It was then I finally dozed off.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
RIP, my dearest friendster blog :(
you know the feeling of losing something that had become a part of you? sad, ain't it? and that's how i felt before when i first learned that friendster would be doin' a major modification. and it's not about losing my profile and pictures there that saddened me but about losing my first-ever blog. :'(
i heard about blogging in 2004 but tried the thing in 2005 and so www.rojane.blog.friendster.com was born. i can still clearly remember my first trial post. BROKE was the title. haha! what a way to start a blog! hahaha! oh, well. i was a neophyte in blogging then so, pardon me. ☻ and from that first entry, i knew i found a friend. a friend who's gonna take in ALL my rants, my stories, my innermost thoughts. without a single complain. so yeah, Innermost Thoughts had been the title of my first blog.
hay. it's really saddening, you know. i've typed almost all my 2+ years of my life and thoughts there so i can look back and have a glimpse of the past whenever i wish to. and then suddenly it's gone! huhu. and it's all because of that stupid, sh*tty, crappy makeover!!! so what had been my first entry was exactly the way my blog had ended. BROKE. the online link to my past was broken. but......
thanks to Solite i was able to print ALL my entries! haha! to those clueless about Solite, it's the company i worked at for 2+ years (from 2004). and man, i tell you! i did nothing there but to blog! aside from pretending to work. ☺ 'coz with the amount of work i had there, it felt like i got no work at all! so we, Solite girls, resorted to just do our own things to while away time. and i ended up strumming the keyboard, pouring out my thoughts of the moment.
going back, yeah, thanks to Solite i have hard copies of my first online diary! :P so what i have right now in mind is to little by little put my past here in blogger. what would be the essence of my blog title tagline, "this is my heart, my soul, my life. this is me," if i won't include the me before? after all, our pasts play a major part of who we are today, right? and yeah, i still want to re-read online not just my old thoughts, but also the innermost of it. ☻
so if you'll see a note at the beginning of my succeeding posts that the entry is from my friendster blog, you know what it means -- it's a glimpse of the past. ;-)
i heard about blogging in 2004 but tried the thing in 2005 and so www.rojane.blog.friendster.com was born. i can still clearly remember my first trial post. BROKE was the title. haha! what a way to start a blog! hahaha! oh, well. i was a neophyte in blogging then so, pardon me. ☻ and from that first entry, i knew i found a friend. a friend who's gonna take in ALL my rants, my stories, my innermost thoughts. without a single complain. so yeah, Innermost Thoughts had been the title of my first blog.
hay. it's really saddening, you know. i've typed almost all my 2+ years of my life and thoughts there so i can look back and have a glimpse of the past whenever i wish to. and then suddenly it's gone! huhu. and it's all because of that stupid, sh*tty, crappy makeover!!! so what had been my first entry was exactly the way my blog had ended. BROKE. the online link to my past was broken. but......
thanks to Solite i was able to print ALL my entries! haha! to those clueless about Solite, it's the company i worked at for 2+ years (from 2004). and man, i tell you! i did nothing there but to blog! aside from pretending to work. ☺ 'coz with the amount of work i had there, it felt like i got no work at all! so we, Solite girls, resorted to just do our own things to while away time. and i ended up strumming the keyboard, pouring out my thoughts of the moment.
going back, yeah, thanks to Solite i have hard copies of my first online diary! :P so what i have right now in mind is to little by little put my past here in blogger. what would be the essence of my blog title tagline, "this is my heart, my soul, my life. this is me," if i won't include the me before? after all, our pasts play a major part of who we are today, right? and yeah, i still want to re-read online not just my old thoughts, but also the innermost of it. ☻
so if you'll see a note at the beginning of my succeeding posts that the entry is from my friendster blog, you know what it means -- it's a glimpse of the past. ;-)
Monday, October 17, 2011
still a LOT to do
i love traveling. you get to visit beautiful places that you don't get to see in your everyday life. you get to taste food that are local and native to the place. you get to learn about different culture and the kind of people living in the place - how they speak, what they do, their interests, etc.
i have a mental list of places i want to go to. and if only i have lotsa money to finance this desire! oh, brother! isn't it frustrating to not do whatever you just wanna do 'coz you don't have enough resources? they say money can't buy happiness. whoever first said that must've been a rich, grumpy ole man lying on his bed with dextrose running thru his hands just waiting for his final breath. joke. :D i mean, maybe yeah, money can't buy ALL the happiness in the world but it can actually buy some. :D like if your happiness is as costly as having a mansion in an elite society, or may it be as cheap as a scoop of ice cream, money is still needed to buy those. get what i mean? so what money cannot buy are just those happiness that don't have a market value like having a good night sleep, a big appetite, one great love, good health, so on and so forth. so what i'm just trying to say is that, money can actually buy you happiness, though not all.
anyway, back to my desire to travel, maybe i'm just quite alarmed now that i still haven't gotten to the places i want to visit here in Au. and my 1 month has already passed. so i still have 2 more months to roam this place, so that means i only have 8 Saturdays left! 8 Saturdays 'coz you see, apart from malls and parks, i can only visit places on Saturdays, that is, if i want my sister and her family as my companions. and golly, i still have this list:
1) lone pine sanctuary
2) Gold Coast
3) Sunshine Coast
4) Movie World
5) Wet 'n Wild
6) Sea World
7) Southbanks
8) Sydney
also, i wanna try to experience riding on their train, their bus and their ferry, explore brisbane city and take a lot of pictures. so maybe i have to do some things by myself. anyway, i find it exciting traveling alone in a foreign place and i wanna experience that. but yeah, you know, the desire is there. it is just the courage that i still don't have now. haha. 'coz exciting it may seem, it can be pretty fearsome, too! like getting lost, getting caught for i don't know what reason...things like that. i really have this very low sense of direction, you know. so getting lost in a foreign place is quite likely. hehe. but i have to be positive. maybe i'll just bring TomTom with me. 'coz with IT, there's no way i'd be lost! haha! oh yes, you read it right, it's IT. and to those of you who don't know tomtom, here it is.
TomTom is a GPS navigation unit. it shows you exactly where you are and leads you to where you wanna go. as in in full details! what street you should cross, what time you'll get to your destination, the speed required, etc. it even alarms you if you're over-speeding! my only problem with TomTom is that, i think it doesn't work for commuters! haha!
anyway, i just wish myself and my list good luck!
i have a mental list of places i want to go to. and if only i have lotsa money to finance this desire! oh, brother! isn't it frustrating to not do whatever you just wanna do 'coz you don't have enough resources? they say money can't buy happiness. whoever first said that must've been a rich, grumpy ole man lying on his bed with dextrose running thru his hands just waiting for his final breath. joke. :D i mean, maybe yeah, money can't buy ALL the happiness in the world but it can actually buy some. :D like if your happiness is as costly as having a mansion in an elite society, or may it be as cheap as a scoop of ice cream, money is still needed to buy those. get what i mean? so what money cannot buy are just those happiness that don't have a market value like having a good night sleep, a big appetite, one great love, good health, so on and so forth. so what i'm just trying to say is that, money can actually buy you happiness, though not all.
anyway, back to my desire to travel, maybe i'm just quite alarmed now that i still haven't gotten to the places i want to visit here in Au. and my 1 month has already passed. so i still have 2 more months to roam this place, so that means i only have 8 Saturdays left! 8 Saturdays 'coz you see, apart from malls and parks, i can only visit places on Saturdays, that is, if i want my sister and her family as my companions. and golly, i still have this list:
1) lone pine sanctuary
2) Gold Coast
3) Sunshine Coast
4) Movie World
5) Wet 'n Wild
6) Sea World
7) Southbanks
8) Sydney
also, i wanna try to experience riding on their train, their bus and their ferry, explore brisbane city and take a lot of pictures. so maybe i have to do some things by myself. anyway, i find it exciting traveling alone in a foreign place and i wanna experience that. but yeah, you know, the desire is there. it is just the courage that i still don't have now. haha. 'coz exciting it may seem, it can be pretty fearsome, too! like getting lost, getting caught for i don't know what reason...things like that. i really have this very low sense of direction, you know. so getting lost in a foreign place is quite likely. hehe. but i have to be positive. maybe i'll just bring TomTom with me. 'coz with IT, there's no way i'd be lost! haha! oh yes, you read it right, it's IT. and to those of you who don't know tomtom, here it is.
TomTom is a GPS navigation unit. it shows you exactly where you are and leads you to where you wanna go. as in in full details! what street you should cross, what time you'll get to your destination, the speed required, etc. it even alarms you if you're over-speeding! my only problem with TomTom is that, i think it doesn't work for commuters! haha!
anyway, i just wish myself and my list good luck!
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Welcome to the World, Baby Julian! ♥
after 9 months, finally! baby julian's out! yipeeee!!! jazel's due was on sept 27 and julian made his way out to the world on the 29th. and boy, is he so cute!!! jazel and jovil were blessed with yet again another cutie little boy.
lemme take note of the major details of my second nephew.
born on sept. 29, 2011, 4:48PM (Au time) at Wesley Hospital, weighing 2.98kg with length of 47cm, baby julian was very much welcomed to the world!
and oh, he is such a crybaby! especially in his first days! every time he wakes up, he cries. every move, he cries. every sound, he cries. but thank God that as days pass, the cries are gradually ebbing. now, he just cries when he is, of course, hungry!!! hehe.
allow me to end this post by singing this song....
♪♫ May the good Lord bless and keep you
La-la-la-la-la-la-laaaah ♫♪
lemme take note of the major details of my second nephew.
born on sept. 29, 2011, 4:48PM (Au time) at Wesley Hospital, weighing 2.98kg with length of 47cm, baby julian was very much welcomed to the world!
and oh, he is such a crybaby! especially in his first days! every time he wakes up, he cries. every move, he cries. every sound, he cries. but thank God that as days pass, the cries are gradually ebbing. now, he just cries when he is, of course, hungry!!! hehe.
allow me to end this post by singing this song....
♪♫ May the good Lord bless and keep you
La-la-la-la-la-la-laaaah ♫♪
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