the good out of the bad
reminder # 1: all things happen for a reason.
thought: not all bad things that happen to us are actually not good. some bad things, in fact, happen to save us from the worse.
lesson: in every state, be thankful.
i went to this children's party last sat. (belated happy 1st birthday to you, reese!) held at Jollibee Guadalupe Branch. sissy was supposed to go with me but then she slipped and fell off the stairs just as we were about to leave the house. pag minalas nga naman tlaga oo! so she got herself bruises over one part of her cheek and a part of her legs. she cried real out loud and cried even more when she learned that she couldn’t go with me na. hay, poor sissy. na-set na kse ung mind nya the night before nung party na kasama tlga sya. and she was dressed up na and all tapos biglang…BLOG!!! ayun, untog! you know the normal feeling of the kid. she even told me na sya daw mag-aabot ng gift for reese. oh well, maybe it’s just better that way. there’s a reason, as I have always believed.
i have this thing about heights. i tend to lose my sense of balance every time i reach a certain height. and I felt that way again when I crossed over the Guadalupe overpass. no exagg but i was damned scared of falling, damned scared of seeing the buses, cars, jeeps running fast below, damned scared that I gripped the banister like hell as if i were crossing a hanging bridge. demn. i even thought of removing my heeled shoes and walk barefooted for fear that I might slip and fall off right down below. oh gosh! it’s just as well that sissy was not with me. damned well. there’s a reason. and this is the reason for sissy’s li’l jinx earlier. i couldn’t even think of what would’ve happened if the little kiddo was with me. thank heavens.
how ironic we can be
reminder # 2: a moment in time only happens once.
thought: like a certain drop of water in the river that has flown, time will never be recovered. some thing does happen that is quite similar to the other but note that it is actually NOT the other but just quite similar to it. keyword is quite.
lesson: in every state, be thankful.
the party was a whole lot of fun. enjoyed it actually more than the kids there did. hay. buhay-bata, ang sarap tlga! isn’t it sooo ironic that when we were yet kids, we can’t wait to grow up na and do the things we want to do without having to ask permission and now that we’re grown-ups na, we long to be kids again, thinking over no problems and just enjoying every moment. tao tlga, di alam ang gusto!
overlooked
reminder # 3: we are all blessed by God, in one way or another.
reminder # 4: what’s just a normal thing for us is already a miracle and an answered prayer for some.
thought: there are things that we ask Him for, yet He didn’t provide. and then, we start to question His existence. there are also things that we haven’t asked Him for, yet He had given. and we never thanked Him for those.
lesson: in every state, be thankful.
i was supposed to bring home a super meal, 2 burgers, a reg. fries and 2 balloons. but i went home with a super meal and 1 balloon.
what happened to the others?
- a beggar, probably in her early teens, asked for the balloons. i gave her one.
- a handicapped man (sans the thighs and legs) at the cubao overpass received a burger.
- a handicapped man (sans the legs and this time, arms as well) seated right beside me in front of the fx received the burger and the fries. (oh god, so many close encounters with handicapped today.) and this time, a conversation had taken place. he lives in padilla and works in taft. that’s 1 and a half-hour ride or approximately Php 100 away from his home. has a housewife for a wife and a 9-year old daughter. pasalubong nyo na lng po sa anak nyo, i said. he smiled shyly. i don’t know if he’s just really a shy person or the shyness was just due to his handicap. he just couldn’t bring himself to look at me when we were talking. my heart just goes out for these persons.
look at us, complaining about a lot of things – about how our shoes sometimes hurt our feet, how we sometimes eat the same food every week, of what to wear for today, of our workload, so on and so forth, taking no notice of those persons who have been fervently praying to have the things we are complaining of – to have at least a nice pair shoes, to have at least a tasty food on their plate, to have at least something decent enough to wear, to have a decent job with a decent paycheck at least.
nakakalungkot. nakakaiyak. may mga taong nagdadasal na sana makalakad sila or even na sana e magkaroon sila ng paa at makalakad din…na may mga taong nagho-hope na sana e magkaroon din sila ng normal na kamay…na may mga taong nagwo-wonder kung ano itsura ng mundong ginagalawan nila, na sana e sa himala ng Diyos, balang araw e makita din nila ito. maswerte ung marami, including myself, at hinde na natin pang kelangang humingi ng mga ganitong klaseng himala. kse binigay na satin ng Diyos di pa man naten ito hinihingi. pero andami pa rin nating reklamo at minsan pa e pinagdududahan pa naten ang kabutihan Niya.
bottomline of this long post is the lesson. in every state, be thankful. when we begin to complain about something, let’s just think that one or more persons in this world are in a worse situation than us. a happy life, after all, is about being content with what we have and with what we don’t have. and contentment, dear, is not earned, but learned.
sometimes, our problems can be resolved by only one thing: learning to count our blessings.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
a newfound desire
* divishop (v.): a term originated from yours truly which means to shop in the outskirts of divisoria
* 22 BC/twenty-two BC (n.): a more sosy word for Tutuban Center, originated from the sosy girl herself, dixie (ex-officemate during celine days)
everybody loves to go shopping, if given enough dough to. but not everbody loves to divishop, even if given enough dough to.
i wasn't much of a divisoria person. going back 2-3 years ago, christmas season, the place was just uberly full of transpos and persons. traffic na nga ng sasakyan, traffic pa din ng mismong tao. bumper-to-bumper in every way. the kind that you don't have to walk to get to one place to another because the people around you were doing the walking for you. you just have to stand out there and then the crowd would be pushing you and then next thing you know, your body was actually "transported" from one point to another. so dapat matibay ka and matatag ang katawan mo, para di ka madala sa basta na lng agos ng tao, kung di rin naman sa agos na yun yung tungo mo tlga. gets?
that's the main reason why there are persons who don't like shopping there, despite the cheap prices. second is the place itself. not naman kadiri in its sense but precisely not a comfy place to shop at compared to malls.
anyways, i must say that my first-time experience there wasn't also something that i actually look forward to happening again. that was 2-3 years ago. when i went there to shop for my inaanaks. (trivia: shopping for myself is usually spent in the stores of kamiseta, celine, bayo, f&h,for me, yrys and karimadon just recently)
last saturday though was a different story. i went there to buy things for myself. and not for my inaanaks. hehe. i wouldn't have gone divishopping in the first place had i not seen and then fallen in love with the vest that my bossing bought there. at a VERY cheap price, mind you. so i persuaded my solite friends to go with me. and cynth gladly said yes, a shop-lover that she is. haha.
3 hours of walking, 1 hour of lunch, 1 1/2 hours of walking again. and boy, was it tiresome!!! but the pagod was very much worth it in the end. i loooove the pieces of clothing that i got, especially when i donned 'em on myself soon as i got home. 6 tops, a pair of jeans and a pair of shorts, all in all, at a minimum cost. i loooooove it!!!!
top 2 places to shop at: 1) 168; and 2) twenty-two BC
now, divisoria moment is one of the things im looking forward to. a divisoria fix is actually on the way. so welcome me back, divi!
* photos soon to be released *
* 22 BC/twenty-two BC (n.): a more sosy word for Tutuban Center, originated from the sosy girl herself, dixie (ex-officemate during celine days)
everybody loves to go shopping, if given enough dough to. but not everbody loves to divishop, even if given enough dough to.
i wasn't much of a divisoria person. going back 2-3 years ago, christmas season, the place was just uberly full of transpos and persons. traffic na nga ng sasakyan, traffic pa din ng mismong tao. bumper-to-bumper in every way. the kind that you don't have to walk to get to one place to another because the people around you were doing the walking for you. you just have to stand out there and then the crowd would be pushing you and then next thing you know, your body was actually "transported" from one point to another. so dapat matibay ka and matatag ang katawan mo, para di ka madala sa basta na lng agos ng tao, kung di rin naman sa agos na yun yung tungo mo tlga. gets?
that's the main reason why there are persons who don't like shopping there, despite the cheap prices. second is the place itself. not naman kadiri in its sense but precisely not a comfy place to shop at compared to malls.
anyways, i must say that my first-time experience there wasn't also something that i actually look forward to happening again. that was 2-3 years ago. when i went there to shop for my inaanaks. (trivia: shopping for myself is usually spent in the stores of kamiseta, celine, bayo, f&h,for me, yrys and karimadon just recently)
last saturday though was a different story. i went there to buy things for myself. and not for my inaanaks. hehe. i wouldn't have gone divishopping in the first place had i not seen and then fallen in love with the vest that my bossing bought there. at a VERY cheap price, mind you. so i persuaded my solite friends to go with me. and cynth gladly said yes, a shop-lover that she is. haha.
3 hours of walking, 1 hour of lunch, 1 1/2 hours of walking again. and boy, was it tiresome!!! but the pagod was very much worth it in the end. i loooove the pieces of clothing that i got, especially when i donned 'em on myself soon as i got home. 6 tops, a pair of jeans and a pair of shorts, all in all, at a minimum cost. i loooooove it!!!!
top 2 places to shop at: 1) 168; and 2) twenty-two BC
now, divisoria moment is one of the things im looking forward to. a divisoria fix is actually on the way. so welcome me back, divi!
* photos soon to be released *
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
updates, rants and all
hello, blog! i so miss you, d'ya know that?
i guess a lot of things have been happening lately. not really, really great things actually but just little things that keep me busy. unlike before when i was in solite, my previous company, where there's nothing i could really do but to blog. i was paid for that, wasn't i? haha.
anyways, here's just a recap of things that i remember happening. funny how things went by so fast that i couldn't find time to write about all of them. well, i just wish i could. so here's the attempt. at random order.
1) i got sick for two days last week. the flu visited me. oh, make it 3 coz i wasn't really well the 3rd day yet i managed to go to work. i don't like being absent here in my new job. and a 2-day sick leave is long enough. i lost some weight. argh! i've tried hard to earn those pounds! dang. not actually "tried hard" coz being able to eat a LOT without getting really fat is a blessing. it's just that no matter how much food intake i get, i'm still....slim! oh well, i'm grateful for it though coz i feel so blessed that i don't have to deprive myself of those fatty yet yummy foods, ain't i?
2) oh yeah, i saw my ex just recently. and it's one of those nakakainis times. i don't have any sparks for him anymore and yet i want him to see me as pretty as he thinks i am. what made me say that? kse he texted me before we accidentally bump with each other and he said something like this:
"wag ka sana magagalit sa tanong ko ha. kita ko kse friendster pics mo and napansin ko na parang iba na itsura mo. nagpapa-facial ka ba regularly? pumuti ka na rin kase."
pumuti nga ko, yes. thanks to you, dj, for introducing me to those scrap soaps of dr. c@l@y@n (nga ba tlga?). and yeah, i gained a few pounds. and so i texted back a quite mayabang txt. hehehe.
"mukha lng ako ngpapa-facial pero hinde! no one touches my skin....not even b3lo. hehe. parang wine lng siguro tlga....gets better with age."
yabang noh? hehe.
let's go back to the nakakainis encounter with mr. ex. i must admit that i wasn't in my best me when it happened. kse may times that you feel so pretty about yourself eh. and may times that you feel you're pangit naman. and i felt the latter that sumkinda-nakakainis day. nakakainis lng coz of all the times na FEELING ko e ang ganda ko, di nya ko nakita and nung minsan na i feel pangit, dun pa nya ko nakita! i don't have sparks for him anymore, i say again, but like any other human with regard to their exes, i also want him to see me as pretty syempre noh. para manghinayang naman sya nang konti khit pano. hahaha! i guess it's just human nature. ya feel me? but in truth and deep within, i'm really happy for him for he's settled and that he's with the love of his life na.
anyweis, the encounter wasn't like in the movies. yung tipong like the world stopped moving around and there's just you and him? NAH! and kaya dun ko na-prove na wla na nga tlgang sparks o khit man lng "something". the accidental meeting was just like the typical meeting and greeting of someone you know. the normal exchange of his and hellos and then off you go. ganun.
for some reason, nagtxt sya. siguro to clarify lng about his perception of the "new" me. o siguro para mang-inis? wutever.
"di ka pala tumaba. and di ka rin pumuti. mata mo lng. make-up o contacts?"
i was itching to txt bak and tell him that i did gain weight and all but i didn't kase baka humaba lng ang usapan. but truth is, i didn't txt bak for this main reason: sayang lng piso ko!!! hahaha!
3) jello, our unico shitzu puppy, is missing. this news is actually long overdue coz it's been a month or so since we lost him. coincidental din ung pangyayari kse ung araw na nawala sya was exactly the same day when my ate and her family left for brisbane, aug. 30. si zel, ung ate ko, kse tlga ung may-ari nun. and she gave jello to me for she couldn't find time anymore to take good care of him. she has already a hubby and a baby to take care of and the least she wants is another "alagain".
up to now, we still can't find him. oh God, i just wish jello be in good hands. we miss him. :(
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i guess a lot of things have been happening lately. not really, really great things actually but just little things that keep me busy. unlike before when i was in solite, my previous company, where there's nothing i could really do but to blog. i was paid for that, wasn't i? haha.
anyways, here's just a recap of things that i remember happening. funny how things went by so fast that i couldn't find time to write about all of them. well, i just wish i could. so here's the attempt. at random order.
1) i got sick for two days last week. the flu visited me. oh, make it 3 coz i wasn't really well the 3rd day yet i managed to go to work. i don't like being absent here in my new job. and a 2-day sick leave is long enough. i lost some weight. argh! i've tried hard to earn those pounds! dang. not actually "tried hard" coz being able to eat a LOT without getting really fat is a blessing. it's just that no matter how much food intake i get, i'm still....slim! oh well, i'm grateful for it though coz i feel so blessed that i don't have to deprive myself of those fatty yet yummy foods, ain't i?
2) oh yeah, i saw my ex just recently. and it's one of those nakakainis times. i don't have any sparks for him anymore and yet i want him to see me as pretty as he thinks i am. what made me say that? kse he texted me before we accidentally bump with each other and he said something like this:
"wag ka sana magagalit sa tanong ko ha. kita ko kse friendster pics mo and napansin ko na parang iba na itsura mo. nagpapa-facial ka ba regularly? pumuti ka na rin kase."
pumuti nga ko, yes. thanks to you, dj, for introducing me to those scrap soaps of dr. c@l@y@n (nga ba tlga?). and yeah, i gained a few pounds. and so i texted back a quite mayabang txt. hehehe.
"mukha lng ako ngpapa-facial pero hinde! no one touches my skin....not even b3lo. hehe. parang wine lng siguro tlga....gets better with age."
yabang noh? hehe.
let's go back to the nakakainis encounter with mr. ex. i must admit that i wasn't in my best me when it happened. kse may times that you feel so pretty about yourself eh. and may times that you feel you're pangit naman. and i felt the latter that sumkinda-nakakainis day. nakakainis lng coz of all the times na FEELING ko e ang ganda ko, di nya ko nakita and nung minsan na i feel pangit, dun pa nya ko nakita! i don't have sparks for him anymore, i say again, but like any other human with regard to their exes, i also want him to see me as pretty syempre noh. para manghinayang naman sya nang konti khit pano. hahaha! i guess it's just human nature. ya feel me? but in truth and deep within, i'm really happy for him for he's settled and that he's with the love of his life na.
anyweis, the encounter wasn't like in the movies. yung tipong like the world stopped moving around and there's just you and him? NAH! and kaya dun ko na-prove na wla na nga tlgang sparks o khit man lng "something". the accidental meeting was just like the typical meeting and greeting of someone you know. the normal exchange of his and hellos and then off you go. ganun.
for some reason, nagtxt sya. siguro to clarify lng about his perception of the "new" me. o siguro para mang-inis? wutever.
"di ka pala tumaba. and di ka rin pumuti. mata mo lng. make-up o contacts?"
i was itching to txt bak and tell him that i did gain weight and all but i didn't kase baka humaba lng ang usapan. but truth is, i didn't txt bak for this main reason: sayang lng piso ko!!! hahaha!
3) jello, our unico shitzu puppy, is missing. this news is actually long overdue coz it's been a month or so since we lost him. coincidental din ung pangyayari kse ung araw na nawala sya was exactly the same day when my ate and her family left for brisbane, aug. 30. si zel, ung ate ko, kse tlga ung may-ari nun. and she gave jello to me for she couldn't find time anymore to take good care of him. she has already a hubby and a baby to take care of and the least she wants is another "alagain".
up to now, we still can't find him. oh God, i just wish jello be in good hands. we miss him. :(
MISSING and very much MISSED!!!
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4) my daddy-o is running for brgy. kagawad this coming brgy election. for some reasons, i must say that i'm not in favor of him running. but politics is one of his happiness. so let be. i want him to be happy and so despite my not wanting him to be in magulong politics again, i'm sending him out my full support. i just wish that this coming election will be a successful and a clean one. it's high time for our barangay to have a corrupt-free governance. i know my dad and with all my heart, i can say that he's so straight. coz if he's not, then we would be one of those really rich people na. his previous work kase is the type na sinusuhulan. and a LOT of big "suhols" he got: house and lot, car, money, you name it. astig! there are times though that i wish na hinde na lng sya ganun ka-straight. para uber rich kame ngayon and that i wouldn't have to work na. hehehe. joke!
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pero ewan ko nga ba why the not-straight guys just always win the game. guess that's just what politics is....dirty!
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5) hinde ko na crush si secret crush. e kse nga, di naman pwede eh. and that, i instilled in my mind. this is one good thing in this "crush" thingy. it's all in the mind and you can just wash it away whenever you tell yourself to. very much unlike when it comes to love. sa love kse, no matter how much you try to love-slash-unlove a person, when you just don't feel it, then you can't force yourself to. it takes a friggin' long time to do it, most especially the un-loving part.
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6) si online crush, ayun, virtual pa rin! haha! pero di ko na rin crush. although nagu-gwapuhan pa rin naman ako. they say that crush is admiration. but in my vocabulary, it's not. sa 'kin, admiration is just plain admiration. crush is admiration PLUS desire (whatever kind of desire it is). the plus made all the difference. kaya nga nawe-weirdohan ako sa ibang girls eh. sa kanila kse siguro, crush is admiration lng tlga so when they admire someone of his/her physical looks, they would say na "uy crush ko sya." even if kapwa nila girl ung tinutukoy nila. kaya most of the time they're mistaken as t-bird na or something. para saken naman, i see them as someone just using the wrong term lng. parang ang euw nga din naman kse pakinggan hearing someone saying that they got a crush on someone of their same gender. yung bunso kong kapatid, ganyan mgsalita! ang euw! hehe. peace, ar!
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which makes me realize, andami kong crushes, wla namang love...in a romantic way. and i'm beginning to yearn again, long and feel the need again for that friggin' unknown someone. i'm happy being un-attached but at the end of the day, like any other normal being, i still need the "home" where i truly belong.
which makes me realize, andami kong crushes, wla namang love...in a romantic way. and i'm beginning to yearn again, long and feel the need again for that friggin' unknown someone. i'm happy being un-attached but at the end of the day, like any other normal being, i still need the "home" where i truly belong.
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oh, too long a post! i hate reading loooong mindless posts like this so before i start to really hate myself, end ko na to. i'll make another post na lng for the others. muchos gracias, blog, for taking all these rants in. i'm spent now. :)
Monday, October 1, 2007
life sans love = sugar-deficient
sana kse di na lng nararamdaman ng tao ang mga hindi naman pala dapat nya maramdaman. para mabawasan man lng ung komplikasyon ng buhay khit pano. baket pa kse nakakaramdam ng kakulangan kung wla naman palang magpupuno? kung wla naman pala tlgang “filler” na destined for you in this life, fate might as well take away the feeling of emptiness.
guess i am not made for love just as love isn't made for me. ah life.....sometimes, i do feel that i hate you. just sometimes....when those inevitable lonely nights seem kinda unbearable.
eh kung mag-Centrum na lng kaya ako? ‘coz….”i wanna be complete.” chos!!!
guess i am not made for love just as love isn't made for me. ah life.....sometimes, i do feel that i hate you. just sometimes....when those inevitable lonely nights seem kinda unbearable.
eh kung mag-Centrum na lng kaya ako? ‘coz….”i wanna be complete.” chos!!!
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