mean-ness #1:
i saw his supposedly "other half" on fwendster. 'nyemas. pretty naman pala eh. e ba't naghahanap pa sya ng iba? ano bang tingin nya sa mga babae? ulam?!?!? kelangan tikman ang iba't ibang putahe dahil nakakaumay pag isa lang?!?!? loko. buti sana kng mala-rich@rd g. pa sya. haha. pero hinde rin, dahil kahit siguro mala-ganun pa un eh, di moi rin papatusin un. siguro titikman lng. hahahaha. chos!
mean-ness #2:
bad trip. sa makuliiiiiit na caller ng h$bc! but i couldn't friggin' blame him din 'coz he's just doin' his job. and becoz partly, i blame myself for it din. coz i was too trusting. demmit. so fault na rin pala ngayon ang magtrust easily?!?!? ganun?!?!? whatta lyf! yang mangungutang na babae na yun ha. don't she ever dare cross my path kung ayaw nyang makatikim ng galit na bonggang-bongga! haha. di naman ako yung taong mabilis magalit e. nagagalit lng pag talagang kagalit-galit na. at ngayon e naiinis na tlga ko. haynakoh, wag lng tlga magkrus landas namen. haha. tapang e noh? and on second thought, kahit naman siguro magkrus landas namen e di ko rin naman alam na sya na pala un. dahil di ko naman tlga sya kilala. hehehe. baka nga nagkrus na pala landas namen eh, and who knows? baka nangitian ko pa sya. haha! stooopid!
mean-ness #3:
isa sa mga pet peeves ko ang txts from 29-syete-syete. kase sayang yung oras ng pagdampot ng fon, pagread ng msg at pagdelete ng msg! and almost always, when the fon beeps, you would initially think that it's from someone whom you'd been waiting to txt you, only to read the friggin' advisories and promos! darn di ba?!?!
mean-ness #4:
speaking of pet peeves, isa din sa list ko na yun ang electronically operated stoplights! kase naman noh, di naman nila nakikita kung saang way na ung kelangang i-go and anong way ang kelangang i-stop! coz they were programmed to shift lights every god-knows-how-many minutes. naka-green ang wala namang sasakyan na dumadaan while naka-red pa ang humahabang linya ng mga sasakyan. argh! those moments piss me so much especially in the mornings when there's a time-in that i would have to catch up. darnit.
isama ko na rin pala sa list na 'to ung mga bus drivers na dupang sa pasahero. like we all have to wait for 5 minutes para maisakay lang ang 3 tao! ehhhh, mang cesar, ikaw ba yan?!?! haha.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Monday, September 8, 2008
just ranting...
galit ka ba? magsalita ka nga! tell me! don't give me this deafening silence! you once said that you are straightforward. then what happened?
may nasabi na naman ba kong nakakainis? masyado ka kaseng sensitive. o mean lang ako? ewan. pero i'm so, soooo tired of saying sorry for things na super babaw lang naman. sorry na lng ako ng sorry. di ko alam kng masyado lang ba kong maguilty-hing tao or what. at ngayon, ang hirap mag-sorry na hinde ko naman alam kung ano dahilan. nakakapagod magrewind nang magrewind ng conversations dito sa utak ko para hanapin kung may nasabi na naman akong na-hurt ka.
haaaay. bahala ka na nga. kung ayaw mo, e di huwag. hmp.
isa pang nakakainis... ang lamig dito sa opisina! grrrrr! OA!!!! eto nga't nakakaramdam na ko ng symptoms of cough and cold o. pahinaan nyo nga aircon!!! demn.
may nasabi na naman ba kong nakakainis? masyado ka kaseng sensitive. o mean lang ako? ewan. pero i'm so, soooo tired of saying sorry for things na super babaw lang naman. sorry na lng ako ng sorry. di ko alam kng masyado lang ba kong maguilty-hing tao or what. at ngayon, ang hirap mag-sorry na hinde ko naman alam kung ano dahilan. nakakapagod magrewind nang magrewind ng conversations dito sa utak ko para hanapin kung may nasabi na naman akong na-hurt ka.
haaaay. bahala ka na nga. kung ayaw mo, e di huwag. hmp.
isa pang nakakainis... ang lamig dito sa opisina! grrrrr! OA!!!! eto nga't nakakaramdam na ko ng symptoms of cough and cold o. pahinaan nyo nga aircon!!! demn.
Monday, August 11, 2008
may dimple nga pala ko!!!
hahaha! actually kase sa sobrang liit nya at sa dalang nya lumabas, e nakalimutan ko na na may dimple nga pala ko! hahaha. and i was only reminded of that little fact this morning. when the gustong-magpapansing LRT guy clerk e di pa rin inaabot ung train's prepaid(?) card na binili ko. i slid my 100-peso bill on the counter and.....
him: "hi mam." *smiles*
moi: *deadma mode with the brows slightly frowned. (kse suuuuuper ngmamadali ako. nghahabol ng oras lagi. mataray mode, in short.)*
him: "si ma'am oh. ba't naman naka-ganyan (simangot) kayo?"
moi: *laughing* "e manong kse ngmamadali na ko ehhhhh."
him: "yan. dapat ganyan. ganda ng dimple nyo oh." *finally giving the card*
moi: "hahaha." *took my card and left*
come to think of it. may pumansin din sa dimple ko. kakatuwa. dahil all my life, ngayon ko lng actually na-feel na existing pala ung tuldok na un. haha. actually may nakapansin na rin before the LRT guy. yung classmate ko from college pa na like 2 months ago lng napansin dimple ko.
her: "jing, may dimple ka pala? bat ngayon ko lng napansin? ngpalagay ka?"
joking time after. hahaha.
****
bull. hanggang kelan ko ba tataguan 'tong h$bc na 'to? bull uli. kase una, yes, it's MY card, but heck, it's NOT my utang anyway. ba't ba naman kase may mga taong ang kakapal ng mukha na makikigamit ng card mo at di naman pala magbabayad?!?!? 15K?!?! bull tlga! at ba't ba naman kase din may mga taong nagtitiwala sa mga taong ni hindi naman tlga nila kilala? in short, mga taong tanga? gaya ko? bull tlga!
****
LG isn't texting me anymore. i mean, since yesterday up to this moment. pro'ly because i didn't reply twice of his messages apart from the so many forwarded txts? it's because i didn't have a load, darling. he's nothing special really. he doesn't even mean anything to me. and yet i want to receive txts from him. and it quite bothers me that there's none. argh!
hmmmmm.....not my type, but i want him to txt me? weeiiirrd!!!
him: "hi mam." *smiles*
moi: *deadma mode with the brows slightly frowned. (kse suuuuuper ngmamadali ako. nghahabol ng oras lagi. mataray mode, in short.)*
him: "si ma'am oh. ba't naman naka-ganyan (simangot) kayo?"
moi: *laughing* "e manong kse ngmamadali na ko ehhhhh."
him: "yan. dapat ganyan. ganda ng dimple nyo oh." *finally giving the card*
moi: "hahaha." *took my card and left*
come to think of it. may pumansin din sa dimple ko. kakatuwa. dahil all my life, ngayon ko lng actually na-feel na existing pala ung tuldok na un. haha. actually may nakapansin na rin before the LRT guy. yung classmate ko from college pa na like 2 months ago lng napansin dimple ko.
her: "jing, may dimple ka pala? bat ngayon ko lng napansin? ngpalagay ka?"
joking time after. hahaha.
****
bull. hanggang kelan ko ba tataguan 'tong h$bc na 'to? bull uli. kase una, yes, it's MY card, but heck, it's NOT my utang anyway. ba't ba naman kase may mga taong ang kakapal ng mukha na makikigamit ng card mo at di naman pala magbabayad?!?!? 15K?!?! bull tlga! at ba't ba naman kase din may mga taong nagtitiwala sa mga taong ni hindi naman tlga nila kilala? in short, mga taong tanga? gaya ko? bull tlga!
****
LG isn't texting me anymore. i mean, since yesterday up to this moment. pro'ly because i didn't reply twice of his messages apart from the so many forwarded txts? it's because i didn't have a load, darling. he's nothing special really. he doesn't even mean anything to me. and yet i want to receive txts from him. and it quite bothers me that there's none. argh!
hmmmmm.....not my type, but i want him to txt me? weeiiirrd!!!
Monday, July 28, 2008
deliverance: my birthday wish
ask for wisdom and not deliverance. yan ang sabi ng pastor namen kapag may pagsubok daw na dumating sa buhay. parang yung hiningi ni king solomon kay Lord noon. wisdom.
masunurin naman akong bata. pero minsan, tumataliwas rin. at isa ito sa mga "minsan" na yun.
i've been facing this for 9 years, more or less. and i think that i've gained enough wisdom within that long span of time. hindi naman po siguro masama Lord kung hingin ko naman ang deliverance kahit para lang sa aspetong ito. i think 9 years is enough. kahit pa-birthday Mo na sa 'kin.
it saddens me, in a way. asking for deliverance from this. because for 9 years, i actually have been asking for it. and i know how to take no for an answer. and so deliverance is the right thing to ask this time. it's the only route that's right. i know. and i know You know it, too.
so, though teary-eyed, for deliverance i pray.
masunurin naman akong bata. pero minsan, tumataliwas rin. at isa ito sa mga "minsan" na yun.
i've been facing this for 9 years, more or less. and i think that i've gained enough wisdom within that long span of time. hindi naman po siguro masama Lord kung hingin ko naman ang deliverance kahit para lang sa aspetong ito. i think 9 years is enough. kahit pa-birthday Mo na sa 'kin.
it saddens me, in a way. asking for deliverance from this. because for 9 years, i actually have been asking for it. and i know how to take no for an answer. and so deliverance is the right thing to ask this time. it's the only route that's right. i know. and i know You know it, too.
so, though teary-eyed, for deliverance i pray.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
rainy days and lovelife
ahhhh...coldness, coldness. i love this kind of atmosphere. the kind of feel a storm or a rain leaves behind. medyo mahangin, malamig, at may makikita ka na kahit pano na sikat ng araw sa likod ng grayish na ulap. this is one of the few occasions when i would want myself to have a looong, long walk. be it alone or with a relative/friend you love to have a chat with. and share your laughters. tama na saken ung maramdaman ko yung dampi ng malamig na hangin sa mukha and sa katawan ko sa ilalim ng hinde mainit na araw. and ma-enjoy ang not-so-often na ganung klaseng panahon. parang baguio on ber months. ahhhh, sarap.
that feel is exactly the atmosphere right now. but i couldn't have the long walk i've been dreaming of. i'm here stuck inside the office, slightly petiks, listening to the old love songs an officemate is playing (na hinde ko naman type pakinggan sa ngayon, kse nasa mode ako ng alternative today), and yeah, doing blogging in between inquiries and quotations. namimiss ko tuloy ang mag-blog ng tutok sa pagbo-blog lng.
anyways, pray ko lng e sana ma-extend ang "remnants" ng bagyong helen until over the weekends. so i'd have the time to enjoy it. and not just dream about it. sure, masarap mag-dream. pero mas masarap pa rin tlga if yung dreams mo e nangyayari din in reality.
***
blogging makes me think of and miss a lot of things. my solite friends, going night-outs, staying over a friend's house, videoke, malling, jazel, jovil and josh and our Sunday routine -- going to church and malling afterwards or watching a movie, -- the things we (me and my first batch of solite friends) do in the office when the bitchy boss is not around, and yes, i confess i also miss having a lovelife. and before this becomes an issue, i'd like to clear that it's the lovelife itself that i miss and not necessarily the ex. they're two different things.
i want real love this time. not the one built by empty words, lies and broken promises. now, will that ever come to me?
aaaahh, rainy days and after-the-rain days just make me wonder of a lot of things. kung lahat lang sana ng lovelife e blossomed on the grounds of true love noh? sarap siguro ng buhay....
that feel is exactly the atmosphere right now. but i couldn't have the long walk i've been dreaming of. i'm here stuck inside the office, slightly petiks, listening to the old love songs an officemate is playing (na hinde ko naman type pakinggan sa ngayon, kse nasa mode ako ng alternative today), and yeah, doing blogging in between inquiries and quotations. namimiss ko tuloy ang mag-blog ng tutok sa pagbo-blog lng.
anyways, pray ko lng e sana ma-extend ang "remnants" ng bagyong helen until over the weekends. so i'd have the time to enjoy it. and not just dream about it. sure, masarap mag-dream. pero mas masarap pa rin tlga if yung dreams mo e nangyayari din in reality.
***
blogging makes me think of and miss a lot of things. my solite friends, going night-outs, staying over a friend's house, videoke, malling, jazel, jovil and josh and our Sunday routine -- going to church and malling afterwards or watching a movie, -- the things we (me and my first batch of solite friends) do in the office when the bitchy boss is not around, and yes, i confess i also miss having a lovelife. and before this becomes an issue, i'd like to clear that it's the lovelife itself that i miss and not necessarily the ex. they're two different things.
i want real love this time. not the one built by empty words, lies and broken promises. now, will that ever come to me?
aaaahh, rainy days and after-the-rain days just make me wonder of a lot of things. kung lahat lang sana ng lovelife e blossomed on the grounds of true love noh? sarap siguro ng buhay....
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
at the moment
sleepy. petiks. in need of cash. hungry. craving for wendy’s burger and frost. thinking about the soon-to-be renovation of the bathroom -- what color combination and style. wanting to go back to bora and wanting my whole family to be with me this time. dreaming, for the nth time, for an slr camera. wanting my mug back. wanting to buy a nice pair of shoes to match the new office uniform. thinking about the maong skirt and the yellow shirt that i just bought -- when will i use them. laughing at an officemate’s joke. wanting to go to some place i haven’t gone to yet. missing the feeling of being in love. missing talking with a guy over the phone for hours. giving up yet still dreaming for the real thing (anubayun?!?!). missing my sister jazel and her family. missing being with them. hoping for a mid-year bonus.
this is me at 2:35PM this 2nd day of july 2008.
this is me at 2:35PM this 2nd day of july 2008.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
some things this recent past
i actually saw it coming. it usually comes days before the period, i observe. so i was expecting it na rin. like it has become a part of monthly this and that. in need of something you do not have. thirsty for something you cannot drink. and then you'd just find yourself curled up like a baby still in her mother's womb. waiting to be born. but in this case, to be free. or be freed.
and i hate feeling like that. i really, really hate it. you have so much to give and yet you cannot just give out. you are so in need of so much and yet you don't know where to get it. helpless. and hopeless. such a poor case, loser.
***
on a happier note, pacquiao won again. over diaz this time. yahoooo! i'm proud to be pinoy. but guys like him make me prouder! ang saya-saya! he's now like Michael Jordan in the field of boxing. and imagine the celtics having their pictures taken with him?!?!? wow! i hope that i get the chance to have a picture with him, too. opportunity, knock on me pleeeeaaase?!????!
***
sissy. she's now in her pre-school. and the financial need is getting more and more intense. her folks couldn't support her studies. and so here we are. not really capable of sustaining the needs of a pre-school kid but we're still trying. for the love of her. we don't want to enrol her in a public school merely because we don't trust how they handle and teach the toddlers there. maybe when she gets a li'l older and/or when she's aready quite learned but definitely NOT when she's still -- raw. mahirap na baka kung ano pang inputs ang maabsorb ng utak niya, or worse, baka walang inputs na iabsorb yung utak nya. so now, we're striving hard for her private studies.
mahirap lng kse para kang biglang nagkaanak. biglang nagkaroon ng obligasyon at dumepende totally sa yo financially. much more if you're not that financially stable yet. i got teary-eyed once when i was on my way home because of this burden. but we care for the kid. so upon reaching home, all i did was to ask her for a hug. pampa-lift up ng spirit and pang-relieve na rin ng bigat na dinadala. "halika nga sissy, payakap nga." and true enough, nakakagaan nga.
haaay, the burden of parenting when you're yet single. kamusta naman.
***
i'm happy with my job. for now. ang medyo tumutulak lang saken to consider going abroad is the gawddang money! and kng wala lang sana kameng pinapaaral, i'll be doing just fine with my salary. pero that's not the case. meron na ngayon so cost-cutting ka muna ha. wala munang impulsive buys. wala munang mga "ok lng" or "pwede na" na mga gamit/damit. dapat kung may bibilhin ka man, dapat yung talagang gustung-gusto mo lng na tipong sa pagtulog e dinadala mo pa rin.
cost-cutting muna ha. cost-cutting muna, dear.
Lovin' Bora....the second time around
here's the link for my boracay escapade with PMG-SWP from June 12-14. thanks HP!!! mmmwah! :*
http://privatejing.multiply.com/photos/album/12/Lovin_BORA.....the_second_time_around_D
http://privatejing.multiply.com/photos/album/12/Lovin_BORA.....the_second_time_around_D
Friday, May 2, 2008
missing me
oh my. i used to be a blogger. i mean, a certified blogger that updates constantly. just writing about everything and anything. even the mundane details and things that really don't matter. now what? i can't even write about the major events and important things that are supposed to be noted. my drafts are slowly piling up. when will they be published? or will they ever be? the busyness is not really the issue. it's about my writing skills. i'm not that good at all a writer but the one that i have has somehow ebbed. and it saddens me. coz i've always wanted to write. it's one of my favorite outlet. sigh.
i miss the jing of the "The Sands of Time (Part I)". i miss the flow of thoughts, the way of writing, the passion, the heart. where is she now? seems like there's not a single trace of her here. maybe it has something to do with the site? maybe she's more at home with the first one? the place where she was born? so maybe she left her heart there? i don't know. i really don't know. and i just wish that i know. i'm starting to sound crazy here and i'm not sure if anyone feels me.
oh god. i really miss the way i write before..... :( whatever happened???
i miss the jing of the "The Sands of Time (Part I)". i miss the flow of thoughts, the way of writing, the passion, the heart. where is she now? seems like there's not a single trace of her here. maybe it has something to do with the site? maybe she's more at home with the first one? the place where she was born? so maybe she left her heart there? i don't know. i really don't know. and i just wish that i know. i'm starting to sound crazy here and i'm not sure if anyone feels me.
oh god. i really miss the way i write before..... :( whatever happened???
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
'twas gone with the wind but.....
after yesterday, i realized that i haven't completely gotten 'round yet to....doing it. but i would like to think that i'm getting there. hoping against hope that i can.
"sa panaginip na lng pala kita maisasayaw....."
and after yesterday, i got the above and the following pics after doing a li'l photography using just my camphone. it may haven't captured much but good photography, after all, isn't really about capturing the perfect scenery through the lens of a top-of-the-line cam, ayt? actually it's the other way around. it's all about how the picture captures the heart of the viewer....how it converses with him. anyways, my subject for this urge to shot? some kids out in the street, my cousin, sissy and me.
apparently, the professional camera that i'm dreaming to have, i have yet to save enough to finance it. :( hopefully this year. hopefully.
"sa panaginip na lng pala kita maisasayaw....."
and after yesterday, i got the above and the following pics after doing a li'l photography using just my camphone. it may haven't captured much but good photography, after all, isn't really about capturing the perfect scenery through the lens of a top-of-the-line cam, ayt? actually it's the other way around. it's all about how the picture captures the heart of the viewer....how it converses with him. anyways, my subject for this urge to shot? some kids out in the street, my cousin, sissy and me.
apparently, the professional camera that i'm dreaming to have, i have yet to save enough to finance it. :( hopefully this year. hopefully.
Monday, March 17, 2008
spell ImPoSSibLe
the dreams that i will never achieve...the "sky" that i will never reach :(
- owning a Leica M-series camera
- to travel the world
- to have a biological brother
- be a popular professional singer (or be just a plain good singer)
- to be a fashion/ramp model
- have not just enough but lots and lots and lotsa $$$ (!!!)
- have the body akin to Charlize Theron and the lips like Alicia Silverstone's
- be an actress, a good actress
- to fly like a bird, soooo up and awaaay and to be so freeee!!! ayus! eenjoyin ko ang sky...ang lamig ng hangin sa gabi, ang kagandahan ng paligid sa umaga. pupunta ko sa lugar na gusto kong puntahan, lilibot, lilipad, nanamnamin ang pagdampi ng hangin sa king katawan. ahhhhhh....sarap! (wag lng sana kong tamaan ng tirador! haha)
"nais kong lumipad
tulad ng agila
at lumutang-lutang
sa hangin
magkaroon ng pugad
sa puso ng kagubatan
ngunit ito ay panaginip lang
at maaaring di matupad.."
- owning a Leica M-series camera
- to travel the world
- to have a biological brother
- be a popular professional singer (or be just a plain good singer)
- to be a fashion/ramp model
- have not just enough but lots and lots and lotsa $$$ (!!!)
- have the body akin to Charlize Theron and the lips like Alicia Silverstone's
- be an actress, a good actress
- to fly like a bird, soooo up and awaaay and to be so freeee!!! ayus! eenjoyin ko ang sky...ang lamig ng hangin sa gabi, ang kagandahan ng paligid sa umaga. pupunta ko sa lugar na gusto kong puntahan, lilibot, lilipad, nanamnamin ang pagdampi ng hangin sa king katawan. ahhhhhh....sarap! (wag lng sana kong tamaan ng tirador! haha)
"nais kong lumipadtulad ng agila
at lumutang-lutang
sa hangin
magkaroon ng pugad
sa puso ng kagubatan
ngunit ito ay panaginip lang
at maaaring di matupad.."
-- joey ayala
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
wHeN tHe GooD TurNs BaaaaD
whatever happened to the country's most prestigious beauty AND brain pa
geant? i am not a gramatically perfect person myself, i don't wanna criticize, i understand what this pageant does to the nervous system, but just the same, i am just any other person that loves to laugh. :D oye, i always laugh at myself too, if that helps. :D
anyways, here's the Q&A portion of the crowned Bb. Pilipinas World '08 herself.....
(sidenote: a good laugh at someone's expense is not good at all. then again, there is also the word "but," isn't it? i know i will be traveling on a guilty trip after by posting this, BUT.....)
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Paolo Bediones: Janina, how are you?
Janina San Miguel: I’m fine.
Paolo Bediones: Alright, so you won two of the major awards - Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit, do you feel any pressure right now?
Janina San Miguel: No, I don’t feel any pressure right now. *smiles*
Paolo Bediones: Confident! Alright! Please choose a name of the judge.
Paolo Bediones: We have Miss Vivienne Tan.
Vivienne Tan: Good Evening.
Janina San Miguel: Good Evening.
Vivienne Tan: The question is, what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?
Janina San Miguel: Well, my family’s role for me is so important b’coz there was the wa- they’re, they was the one who’s… very… Hahahaha… Oh I’m so sorry, Ahhmm… My pamily… My family… Oh my god… I’m… Ok, I’m so sorry… I… I told you that I’m so confident… Eto, Ahhmm, Wait… Hahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys because this was really my first pageant ever b’coz I’m only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the taft 10. Hmmm, so… but I said that my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.
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my say? i guess they have this (sense of) humor factor which eats up the 70% of the criteria? hehehe. omg, i'm so sorry....flease porgive me. lol. no offense. :D
geant? i am not a gramatically perfect person myself, i don't wanna criticize, i understand what this pageant does to the nervous system, but just the same, i am just any other person that loves to laugh. :D oye, i always laugh at myself too, if that helps. :Danyways, here's the Q&A portion of the crowned Bb. Pilipinas World '08 herself.....
(sidenote: a good laugh at someone's expense is not good at all. then again, there is also the word "but," isn't it? i know i will be traveling on a guilty trip after by posting this, BUT.....)
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Paolo Bediones: Janina, how are you?
Janina San Miguel: I’m fine.
Paolo Bediones: Alright, so you won two of the major awards - Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit, do you feel any pressure right now?
Janina San Miguel: No, I don’t feel any pressure right now. *smiles*
Paolo Bediones: Confident! Alright! Please choose a name of the judge.
Paolo Bediones: We have Miss Vivienne Tan.
Vivienne Tan: Good Evening.
Janina San Miguel: Good Evening.
Vivienne Tan: The question is, what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?
Janina San Miguel: Well, my family’s role for me is so important b’coz there was the wa- they’re, they was the one who’s… very… Hahahaha… Oh I’m so sorry, Ahhmm… My pamily… My family… Oh my god… I’m… Ok, I’m so sorry… I… I told you that I’m so confident… Eto, Ahhmm, Wait… Hahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys because this was really my first pageant ever b’coz I’m only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the taft 10. Hmmm, so… but I said that my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.
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my say? i guess they have this (sense of) humor factor which eats up the 70% of the criteria? hehehe. omg, i'm so sorry....flease porgive me. lol. no offense. :D
Thursday, March 6, 2008
"SpeCiaL"
i just wonder why some people just can't give more or extend compassion on persons we consider special. not the "special" in terms of heart matters but the "special" as in special child. i mean, why do some people get easily irritated by the "special" ones when the latter make a fuss over some petty thing, when they overreact on certain issues, when they misunderstand what we said, when they commit some mistakes due to misunderstanding. don't they more deserve further explaining than giving them a cold shoulder or a roll-of-the-eyes expression?
why can't some people see that they are so blessed they didn't turn out to be "special" and that the least they can do is to treat those that are with extra patience, extra compassion, extra love, extra everything? that we are to treat them specially because they deserve it, they need it, they crave for it. why.can't.they? sigh.
there are a lot of things we've taken for granted, a lot of blessings we cannot see. i guess all we need is just to open up our eyes more to see more. and then widen up our minds to learn to appreciate and value when we see one.
why can't some people see that they are so blessed they didn't turn out to be "special" and that the least they can do is to treat those that are with extra patience, extra compassion, extra love, extra everything? that we are to treat them specially because they deserve it, they need it, they crave for it. why.can't.they? sigh.
there are a lot of things we've taken for granted, a lot of blessings we cannot see. i guess all we need is just to open up our eyes more to see more. and then widen up our minds to learn to appreciate and value when we see one.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
OnE FiNe DaY
i so love how the morning went this day. it's one of those fine mornings that make me smile and deeply breathe the air. the breeze was cool. the sky was filled with patches of clouds which were highlighted by the sun...and the way the clouds absorbed the semi-brightness of the sun was just perfect enough, making them look like luminous patches of white objects scattered across the light blue sky. oh God, You definitely made this morning just perfect.
i wonder if there were also other people who appreciated what i was enjoying on my way to work this morning. there's something in that setup that told me that this is going to be a one fine day, if not a perfect one. i dunnoh if it's just an intuitive feeling or if it’s the nature’s way of whispering this thought to me. anyways, arriving at the office, i found a pair of white sunglasses sitting on my desk. wow, wow, wow! it didn't actually come as a surprise though since i had asked ate ana, my officemate, to buy me one since she was going to bangkok. but i also told her to not exert much effort and invest time if she couldn’t find one that fits my description. so i wasn’t expecting, just merely hoping. so i was overwhelmed finding it on my desk. thanks so much, ate ana! mwahz!
(the one at the back wearing a pair of spectacles is ate ana herself. the shades is her pasalubong na to me. she didn’t let me pay it! yaaaaay!!!)
one fine morning. i hope that the rest of the day will turn out to be fine as well.
ahhhhh, i love this day! :)
pahabol:
i just had a call from my SC. still turns me on. dang! and after putting down the receiver i unconsciously sang this line: “i was dying inside to hold you. i couldn’t believe what i felt for you. dying inside, i was dying inside. well, i couldn’t bring myself to touch you.”
oh yeah, i soooo love this day! :) TSUP! :*
i wonder if there were also other people who appreciated what i was enjoying on my way to work this morning. there's something in that setup that told me that this is going to be a one fine day, if not a perfect one. i dunnoh if it's just an intuitive feeling or if it’s the nature’s way of whispering this thought to me. anyways, arriving at the office, i found a pair of white sunglasses sitting on my desk. wow, wow, wow! it didn't actually come as a surprise though since i had asked ate ana, my officemate, to buy me one since she was going to bangkok. but i also told her to not exert much effort and invest time if she couldn’t find one that fits my description. so i wasn’t expecting, just merely hoping. so i was overwhelmed finding it on my desk. thanks so much, ate ana! mwahz!
(the one at the back wearing a pair of spectacles is ate ana herself. the shades is her pasalubong na to me. she didn’t let me pay it! yaaaaay!!!)
one fine morning. i hope that the rest of the day will turn out to be fine as well.
ahhhhh, i love this day! :)
pahabol:
i just had a call from my SC. still turns me on. dang! and after putting down the receiver i unconsciously sang this line: “i was dying inside to hold you. i couldn’t believe what i felt for you. dying inside, i was dying inside. well, i couldn’t bring myself to touch you.”
oh yeah, i soooo love this day! :) TSUP! :*
Monday, February 18, 2008
one unforgettable night
a dinner with a filipino lawyer who understands so very little of the filipino language
equals
nosebleed!!!
reminder: next time, date only those who can understand your own tongue (di ba, jam?!). lol!
equals
nosebleed!!!
reminder: next time, date only those who can understand your own tongue (di ba, jam?!). lol!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
feb-ibig
here comes this month again, the month of love, when couples are more loving with each other, more caring, more thoughtful, more intimate. when sons and daughters show more affection and sweetness with their parents. the time when people share a piece of love even to a perfect stranger, when people are a lot kinder and/or in a lesser evil mode. :D 'tis the time when flower shops are filled with eager buyers, when cards are flying everywhere.
love indeed is in the air, so strong that you could almost feel its presence. february = feb-ibig (as kapamilya put it so).
so i took this opportunity to share to my officemates the great love of God for us. i gave them tracts, to share the gift of salvation. my dad received one as well plus an I Love You heart with a stick attached to it.
message written on the heart: "sending you GOD'S LOVE this Hearts' Day....because i care. >jing :)"
Happy Hearts' Day to everyone! <3
love indeed is in the air, so strong that you could almost feel its presence. february = feb-ibig (as kapamilya put it so).
so i took this opportunity to share to my officemates the great love of God for us. i gave them tracts, to share the gift of salvation. my dad received one as well plus an I Love You heart with a stick attached to it.
message written on the heart: "sending you GOD'S LOVE this Hearts' Day....because i care. >jing :)"
Happy Hearts' Day to everyone! <3
Monday, February 11, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
jan 31: jaded
why do some people lie? why they'd rather make up stories then give those dang excuses like 'cuz they don't want you to get hurt or don't want you to get mad or something? i hate lies. i absolutely hate lies. and no matter how "caring" and "concerned" those excuses seem, well, sorry, i just don't bite 'em.
i know that we're living in a fallen world. but still, it just pisses me to know that the person who think of me as her "bestfriend" lied to me. how could she??? and it just saddened me to realize that it somehow marred the friendship we've had. of course i can forgive. who am i not to? but that instance kinda affect the way i see her now.
she's still my friend. ambabaw naman kung hinde na noh. pero kung mababalik pa ba uli the way i see her before, that i don't know yet. time will reveal.
i know that we're living in a fallen world. but still, it just pisses me to know that the person who think of me as her "bestfriend" lied to me. how could she??? and it just saddened me to realize that it somehow marred the friendship we've had. of course i can forgive. who am i not to? but that instance kinda affect the way i see her now.
she's still my friend. ambabaw naman kung hinde na noh. pero kung mababalik pa ba uli the way i see her before, that i don't know yet. time will reveal.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
still a lifetime away
they often say that how you start the week got something to do on how your whole week will go. and most of us consider monday as the first day of the week. so like when you arrive late in your office on a monday, most likely is that you'll be late on the succeeding days as well.
anyways, my experience so far this week didn't prove that. my monday was a blast. a whole lotta fun and story-sharing. dj, a very close friend back in HS, came back from Au and we had a little get-together. me, ar, dj and rj. we weren't able to contact the others. anyways, we spent dinner at grilla then coffee at starbucks afterwards. my close friends often say that im a camwhore, makulet and madaldal. and as the saying goes, birds of the same feather flock together. so what you guys would expect of dj? hehe. get the point?
so the camwhores did some pictorial galore, not to mention chikka galore. haha.
thanks dj for the time, treat, stories and great company. thanks also rj, our official (and patient) photographer. hehe. thanks ar, for sharing the night with moi.
we shared stories til 1:20am, parted at 'round 1:30. got home at 2:15 and slept at 3am.
then came tuesday. still sleepy from the night before. work, work, work and more work. i was in the robotic mode again. ung antok na antok ka pa, blangko ang utak pero tuluy-tuloy pa rin sa pag-work. kabisado mo na ang gagawin kaya ung kilos mo e automatic na. parang de-susing robot. ganun.
then came the uwian, yahooooo! and then there he was, the avid su!+0r. again. i wasn't in the mood to talk. i just wanna rest. i wanna be alone, for the first time. and yet there he was. argh! siguro kung type mo rin ung tao, matutuwa ka pa. stress reliever yun pag ganun. otherwise, dagdag stress lng. so i was moooore stressed on the way home. i don't wanna go into details why kase mare-refresh na naman ung memory ko of that uber stressful day.
so opinion ko na lng muna. mabait naman sya eh. and serious into "this" thing. pero mahirap lng siguro tlaga na diktahan mo ung puso mo kung ano ang dapat nitong maramdaman kung wla naman tlgang nararamdaman. di ba?!?! you can't force yourself or tell your heart to "feel something" kung zero naman tlga. kalokohan un! malaking kalokohan. so i told him that i can only offer friendship. willing naman daw sya maghintay, he'll take it step-by-step, blah-blah-blah...
e pano kung walang mabago sa feelings ko? pano kung ayoko din tlgang may mabago? i don't wanna settle with someone i have no feelings for just to say that im in a relationship again...at umasa na baka may tumubong feelings eventually. ewan ko nga ba kung pano nagagawa ng iba un eh. ako kase hinde. hinde ko kaya.
im happy being unattached and somehow the contentment being not in a relationship scares me. in a way. kase naiisip ko na baka masyado kong makuntento and maging masaya and then i'd end up a spinster someday. but i'd really rather be like that than to wake up in the morning beside the person you still have to learn to love. gosh! ampanget naman na love story nun noh. can't even call it one. kase ang love, nararamdaman, hinde iniisip. emosyon at hinde knowledge na kailangan mong i-absorb. pero that doesn't mean pa rin na pag nag-love ka e di ka na rin dapat nag-iisip ha. ibang kaso un.
pag nagmahal ka, puso yung pumipintig. pag utak yung pumintig, hinde love yun, malamang nag-eexam ka lang. haha! lol.
the clock is ticking and yet my dream seems still like a lifetime away. hay....pressure.
anyways, my experience so far this week didn't prove that. my monday was a blast. a whole lotta fun and story-sharing. dj, a very close friend back in HS, came back from Au and we had a little get-together. me, ar, dj and rj. we weren't able to contact the others. anyways, we spent dinner at grilla then coffee at starbucks afterwards. my close friends often say that im a camwhore, makulet and madaldal. and as the saying goes, birds of the same feather flock together. so what you guys would expect of dj? hehe. get the point?
so the camwhores did some pictorial galore, not to mention chikka galore. haha.
thanks dj for the time, treat, stories and great company. thanks also rj, our official (and patient) photographer. hehe. thanks ar, for sharing the night with moi.
we shared stories til 1:20am, parted at 'round 1:30. got home at 2:15 and slept at 3am.
then came tuesday. still sleepy from the night before. work, work, work and more work. i was in the robotic mode again. ung antok na antok ka pa, blangko ang utak pero tuluy-tuloy pa rin sa pag-work. kabisado mo na ang gagawin kaya ung kilos mo e automatic na. parang de-susing robot. ganun.
then came the uwian, yahooooo! and then there he was, the avid su!+0r. again. i wasn't in the mood to talk. i just wanna rest. i wanna be alone, for the first time. and yet there he was. argh! siguro kung type mo rin ung tao, matutuwa ka pa. stress reliever yun pag ganun. otherwise, dagdag stress lng. so i was moooore stressed on the way home. i don't wanna go into details why kase mare-refresh na naman ung memory ko of that uber stressful day.
so opinion ko na lng muna. mabait naman sya eh. and serious into "this" thing. pero mahirap lng siguro tlaga na diktahan mo ung puso mo kung ano ang dapat nitong maramdaman kung wla naman tlgang nararamdaman. di ba?!?! you can't force yourself or tell your heart to "feel something" kung zero naman tlga. kalokohan un! malaking kalokohan. so i told him that i can only offer friendship. willing naman daw sya maghintay, he'll take it step-by-step, blah-blah-blah...
e pano kung walang mabago sa feelings ko? pano kung ayoko din tlgang may mabago? i don't wanna settle with someone i have no feelings for just to say that im in a relationship again...at umasa na baka may tumubong feelings eventually. ewan ko nga ba kung pano nagagawa ng iba un eh. ako kase hinde. hinde ko kaya.
im happy being unattached and somehow the contentment being not in a relationship scares me. in a way. kase naiisip ko na baka masyado kong makuntento and maging masaya and then i'd end up a spinster someday. but i'd really rather be like that than to wake up in the morning beside the person you still have to learn to love. gosh! ampanget naman na love story nun noh. can't even call it one. kase ang love, nararamdaman, hinde iniisip. emosyon at hinde knowledge na kailangan mong i-absorb. pero that doesn't mean pa rin na pag nag-love ka e di ka na rin dapat nag-iisip ha. ibang kaso un.
pag nagmahal ka, puso yung pumipintig. pag utak yung pumintig, hinde love yun, malamang nag-eexam ka lang. haha! lol.
the clock is ticking and yet my dream seems still like a lifetime away. hay....pressure.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
break it to him gently
if someone you have absolutely no feelings for, as in no nothing (like i said "walang kilig," "walang kaba"), is sort of courting you, how are you supposed to treat him? be the snob-and-kinda-mean person that you usually donned back in college (to turn him off) or be the nice person that you really are?
how are you going to break it to him gently when he's not even asking you how you feel? how can you even say that friendship is all that you can give without sounding too assuming?
if he's only your type, the setup would definitely be an A-okay. if you have even a little spark, the meetings would be something you look forward to. but what if it's not?!?! damned not?!??
haaay, i hate hurting other people's feelings. consciously or unconsciously. i love people making happy. i love making them smile. and if only i could always make them feel that way....
how are you going to break it to him gently when he's not even asking you how you feel? how can you even say that friendship is all that you can give without sounding too assuming?
if he's only your type, the setup would definitely be an A-okay. if you have even a little spark, the meetings would be something you look forward to. but what if it's not?!?! damned not?!??
haaay, i hate hurting other people's feelings. consciously or unconsciously. i love people making happy. i love making them smile. and if only i could always make them feel that way....
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