ooppsss, i did it again!

bathing and playing in the rain, that is. since Phil. Independence fell on a Sat this year, the non-working day was moved to Mon, June 14. it isn't like everyday that i get the chance to bathe in the rain so when the chance knocked, i grabbed it. :D

the sweetest lie

i had dreamed of, so far, the most impossible dream last night. and it was, by far, the bittersweetest. it was, by far, the sweetest lie.

fragments:
"ate mo ang the best," said to the youngest sis, with tears in his eyes
"remember the time when i laid my head on your lap and told you that i would love you forever? totoo yun."
"september 13, 2010" (--> what's this? so out-of-period! weird.)

ha! dreams. don't you sometimes hate their inconsistencies?...their contradictions with reality?...their weirdness?

don't make me dream like that again. please. don't make me hopeful, even a bit, that the dream could be true. please.

ym status batch 1

i love blogging. but time has been ungenerous for the past year and so, much as i wanted to write, i don't have enough time. and so, my rantings and thoughts were shortened to just one to three liners and were posted to my mini blog called ym status. hehe. can't remember anymore the many status i was in before but here are some of those that i can recall. written from recent to past.

june 4, 2010: haist, bat ba naman kase napabilang pa ko sa listahan na yun. why, was i that bad to be in the list? do i deserve it??? grrr.

may 18, 2010: tsk..tsk..tsk..too bad that the world is so full of lazy people. if only people are paid for what they are really worth or rather, by the amount of work they do, guess everyone will be embracing their own load. too bad life isn't that fair. tsk..tsk..

may 11, 2010: nakakapanghinayang lng. ewan ko nga ba. parang we let the chance for a better Phils. pass.

feb. 18, 2010: gimme 3 VERY good reasons to...hang on. 'coz know what? i don't want to anymore.

jan. 15, 2010: take a deep breath. take it all lightly. and smile. *sigh* fool yourself if you must.

nov. 11, 2010: life, nowadays, is switching from one channel to another channel i can't understand a single demn thing! good luck!

well, that's just it...as far as i can remember. anyway, i'll be noting all the ym stats from today onwards so i could post them down here. so there. the bits and pieces of me for the many months that passed.

Silip sa Aking Balota

May 10 election is nearing. Very nearing that I can already see the schools packing with voters, see the ink on my right index finger, smell the different scents of people when under the sun (some remain good, but most don't. hehe), see people getting pissed off with the new voting system, most especially if a glitch (even minor) occurs, see familiar faces and having a chat with them, and of course, the ballot. The precious ballot.

My ballot would read.....(note: at this early pa lang, I would like to say sorry sa mga matatamaan at masasagasaan. Blog ko 'to. Magblog din kayo. hehe).

......GIBO as my president. My Gibo. My idol. Hehe. Why him?

I'm basing my judgment on his personality, not to mention his credentials which, by the wy, never fail to make me go "wow" with matching action of the surprised smiley in ym. :D

He has ambitions. He dreams BIG. He knows what he wants and the most inportant is, he makes ways to achieve them. Bilib ako sa mga taong minamaximize ung angking talent/talino nila. Si Gibo, hinde nakuntento sa kung ano yung naabot na niya. Pag alam pa niyang may mas kaya pa siyang abutin e inaabot niya. Para sa ikabubuti. Take for example his educational background. He graduated cum laude of law in UP, top-notcher of the bar exam in his batch. But he didn't settle for just that. He took masters at Harvard and became a bar passer there, too. Na-wow ako.

Bilib ako sa mga taong may pangarap at inaabot yun. Lahat ng tao ay may pangarap. Maliit man yun o malaki. Pero hinde lahat ng tao e naabot/inaabot yung mga pangarap na yun dahil marami ang nakukuntento na lang na maging pangarap yun. (ouch!!! :D) Siya, hinde siya kuntento na hanggang pangarap lang yun. He was interviewed about his lovelife. Noon, nakita raw niya yung misis niya (who still wasn't his wife during that time) sa isang magazine, and he said to himself, hinde raw siya magpapakasal pag hinde yung babaeng yun pakakasalan niya. Look at him now, he's married to the woman on the magazine. Na-wow uli ako.

Nangangarap siya pero hinde yung tipong suntok sa buwan. Yung pangarap e achievable. May isang nagsabi na gagawin daw Sg ang Pinas. I dunnoh kung sino nagsabi nun kase kwento lang naman saken. Ang sagot daw ni Gibo: Nung naging Singapore ang Singapore e it took years. Hinde yun magagawa ng isang presidente sa isang termino niya na 6 years lang. Siya, hinde siya mangangako ng ganung klaseng pangako na suntok sa buwan. Kung ano ang kaya niyang gawin sa isang termino e yun ang gagawin niya. Kakabilib sumagot. Matalino talaga. Hinde siya bombastic magsalita na gaya ng maraming kandidato. Na-wow tuloy ako.

Positive campaigning ang ginagawa niya. Hinde naninira. Kahit lumabas yung issue na nilaglag siya ni Gloria, hinde niya pinatulan. I just read yesterday that in one of his interviews, nasabi niya na unusual daw yung style niya for campaigning. Ayaw niya i-spoon feed ang madla. Lemme quote what he said: "Voters should use all means available to them, particularly those in the internet to really find out rationally and objectively why they should vote for one or the other candidate. That's the obligation of the citizenry which will make for a mature electorate and a more informed electorate." Such a brainy statement. Kaya lang kase, hinde ganun ang majority ng pinoy. Gusto i-spoon feed. Gusto sumabay sa agos, sumabay sa nakararami. Tamad gumawa ng paraan para maka-derive ng sariling opinion, ng sariling paninindigan. Makiki-share at aakuin na lang din ang opinion ng iba. Makikinig. Hinde maghahanap. Kaya, eto ko, kinakampanya ka. Ako na lang ang mag-i-spoon feed at ako na lang ang maninira para sa 'yo. Haha!

I've been asking people kung sino presidente nila. At pag hinde si Gibo, why not him. These were the often answers that I got and my answers to each.

1) He's under Gloria's wings since pambato ng administrasyon.
My side: Matalino si Gibo. And generally speaking, hinde basta-basta nagpapadikta yung mga matatalinong tao. May prinsipyo sila. May paninidigan. May ego. Kaya more often than not, ayaw pa nila ng dinidiktahan sila, unless otherwise you prove to them that you're right and they're wrong.

Si Gibo ay si Gibo. Si Gloria ay si Gloria. May kanya-kanya pa ring personalidad. May kanya-kanya pa ring pamamaraan at paniniwala. Parehas man ng partido, magkaibang tao pa rin sila.

2) Yung winning ability daw. Hinde daw mananalo. Sayang lang boto mo.
My side: Election was not made for us to vote for who we think will win. We vote for who we think is right for the position. Saken, hinde sayang boto mo kung matalo man kandidato mo. Magiging sayang lang isang boto kung hinde mo binoto yung tingin mong nararapat sa posisyon. Kung boboto lang tayo dahil yun yung tingin nateng mananalo e di sana wala na lang election. Sana e i-survey na lang nila tayo nang bonggang-bongga. Sayang lang yung gagastusin ng bansa para sa election kung ganun lang din yung basis. It's a wrooong thinking, para saken.

So there. Those are the reasons why I'd cast my vote for him. Gusto kong sumakay sa eroplano na minamaneho niya. Gusto kong sumama sa pag-abot sa pangarap niya para sa Pinas.

TOPIC 2: Why not other presidentiables?

(Again, am very, very sorry sa mga matatamaan. I do respect your choice but then again, this is my blog and I just want to let out, so let be. :D)

On why not Noynoy.

Walang isang salita. Walang kongkretong plano. Walang sariling disposisyon. Nagpapadala sa agos. Sabi noon, hinde tatakbo. Cory passed away at nag-claim yung tao na tumakbo siya, to which he obliged. Kahit wala sa kanyang plano. Nadadala sa udyok. Pano pag naging presidente na siya? Pano kung may plano siyang gawin para sa Pinas at may kumontra (whic is totoong mangyayari kase kahit anong gawin mo, mabuti man o masama, laging may kontra. Given na yan.) Ano, hinde na lang itutuloy kung sakaling may mag-udyok na naman? Laging may dalawang boses ang taong-bayan. Sa isang proyekto, may nagye-yes at may nagno-no. Never naging isa ang boses. At kung ang gusto niyang pakinggan ay ang taong-bayan, kaninong boses ang pakikinggan niya? Kaninong plano ang susundin? You have to have your plan. And do it. You have to have your word. And walk it.

Number 2. Pikon. Not emotionally stable. Tinanong kung baket si Villar ang sinabi ni baby james sa isang campaign niya. Ang sagot, e kase baka bihira lang marinig nung bata na binabanggit yung pangalan niya kaya siya na lng bumanggit. And I happen to not like the answer which, by the way, was the main reason why my dislike for him emerged. To me, the answer sounded more like a bata na napikon sa kaaway. He should've answered truthfully. He should've said na syempre, obvious naman na sa tv e panay villar at jingle ni villar yung mabilis maregister sa utak ng bata, kaya ganun. Let's say that it's obvious naman na and one doesn't have to state the obvious. But if need be, you have to. If the answer was just a joke or just to lighten the mood, you're running for the highest position and you shouldn't answer questions that could be misinterpreted, as much as possible. Be careful. Think first before you talk.

Malakas loob ngayon. Kase madaaaaming supporters, in fairness. Pero pano pag naging pres. na? For sure may masasagasaan siya at dadami ang batikos. Karamihan sa tao, ang madalas makita ay yung mga mali at panget na nagawa mo pero parang nabubulag at mabilis kumalimot sa nagawang maganda. Kakayanin ba niya ang kaliwa't kanang batikos ng pinoy? Kung ngayon pa lang e magpi-people power na daw pag nadaya. Pag-aalsa na agan aang nasa isip gayung hinde pa nagsisimula ang botohan. At ano nga ba ang basis ng isang tao para masabing nadaya siya sa election? Ang survey? Kung ano ang laman ng survey e dapat ganun din kalabasan ng boto? Survey vs. election = thousands vs. millions (of voters). Surveys are opinions of just a certain number of persons but it won't really speak for ALL.

Sabi para sa pagbabago daw. Ano'ng pagbabago kung people power pa rin ang naiisip. Naka-ilang people power na ng tayo di ba? May nabago ba? Ganun pa rin naman. Nami-misuse ang people power. Nao-overuse. Tapos ngayon, people power na naman? Hinde naman pagbabago nadudulot ng people power eh. Ang pagbabago e kung tayo ay nagkaron ng unity. Sa people power, isang araw lang united ang pinoy -- sa mismong people power. Pagtapos nun, ilang araw o buwan lng, kanya-kanya na uli.

I'm getting out of the topic, man! Going back. Sige. Hinde siya mangongorrupt/corrupt. But how about the lower officials, the lower authorities, mapipigilan bang wag sila mangorrupt? Ang hinde niya pangongorrup won't mean na mawawala ang corruption. Mababawasan lng ng isang corrupt pero ang corruption, hinde mawawala. Hard to admit but it's the truth. Nasa sistema na yun ng politics. We can't simply take it off just like that. Kahit san namang bansa e may corruption din. Kahit sa private sectors, meron, hinde lang sa gov't sectors.

Sorry uli sa madaming nasagasaan ko. Don't worry, love ko pa rin kayo. :) And I mean that with all my heart. I want to clarify that my opinion on anyone you choose does NOT equate to my perception of you personally. It has no bearing.

On why not Villar.

Simply because of the so many issues. The issues say it all. Let's say na hinde pa naman proven guilty sa mga binabato sa kanya. Pero siguro naman sa dinami-daming binabato sa kanya e posibleng kahit isa dun e totoo.

On why not Erap.

He was given the chance before but he was ousted. I won't give another chance for a not-good history to repeat itself. There are still better options to choose from.

On why not Gordon.

Hmmmmm.....may Gibo na kase ako eh. :D And.....

.....ho-hum. *yawns & stretches* It's past 1AM already (when I'm composing this). My senses are slowly signing out and I can't think and type much na. Just leaving you one thing. PLEASE VOTE WISELY. MAy you have reasons for voting the person and may those reasons be reasonable. Do your part. Cast your vote. The future depends on you. You may only be one but your vote counts.

May the upcoming election be a peaceful and a successful one. Happy voting!!! :)

sweet dreams

i just can't help laughing everytime i'm reminded of my last night's (sweet) dream. :D

there are various kinds of dream, right? there are those that seem like you're just watching a TV.....and you are the lead actor/actress. ito yung mga tipo na parang hiwalay ka sa sarili mo at pinapanuod mo lng yung sarili mo. tipong hindi mo aktuwal na nararamdaman yung ginagawa mo sa dream mo. i don't know if you get what i mean buth that's it. and there are those, too, that you very well know that you are just dreaming and that you will wake up afterwards.

and the best kind, especially if those are sweet dreams, are those that feel....oh so real. the ones that feel like they're happening for real tlga! you can feel right through your skin, you can feel your heartbeat, you can feel real emotions. and that was the kind of dream i had last night. hahaha. it makes me laugh again.

background ng TUNAY na pangyayari kahapon:
i dated someone yesterday. it was actually not a romantic type of date. uhmmmm...more of, let's just say, an obligatory date. kind of. 'coz in my younger sister's church, they have this annual banquette -- where singles get to date somebody from the church. so if one was already asked for, boys have to go look for another one, type man nila or nde, as long as you have a date. but if you don't really want to, they won't force you naman eh, so no pressure. but for the sake of fun or whatever, why not? it's just like a getting-to-know-each-other thingie. no strings attached, no commitments, no whatsoever. in short, there's no chance of you to lose something. in fact, you'll be able to gain one friend pa.

so there, i had dated that kind of date last night.

and here's the continuation. only, it was just a DREAM. that i wished was real. haha!

somebody got jealous of me dating somebody else. and that jealous somebody? hah! it was no other than gerard anderson! wahahahahaha! *laughing hard and rolling on the floor* kelan pa ba ko naging si kim chiu?!?!?!?! haha!

haaaay, funny. we were lying on the bed (doing absolutely nothing malicious, just to be clear. defensive?! hehe) and ar was there, too. he was combing my hair. and syempre ako naman e sarap na sarap. favorite ko yun eh! yung suklayin and paglaruan yung buhok ko ng iba. hehe. it makes me sleeeepy.

him: ganda ng buhok mo. anlambot. *while combing and stroking my hair*
me: sige, tuloy mo lng. sarap eh. hehe. para makatulog ako.

conversation that i cannot remember continued. but here are bits that i can recall.

me: usog ka nga dun! nahuhulog na ko eh!

blah..blah..blah...

then he asked me something serious that i cannot remember (na naman!). so i faced him. e masikip yung kama. so our faces were really so close.

him: *murmuring wearing the tampo face* kaw ha, meron ka pang paakbay-akbay kanina e samantalang nung ako ka-date mo e wala. hmp.
me: *smiling* ahhhh. yun ba? di ko naman inakbayan yun ah. hinampas ko lng eh.

him, with the still tampo face. and me, with a bubblethought that read, "hayaan mo, ikikiss kita mamaya."

and then i woke up. hahaha. i was soooo biten that it ended there. mamayang gabi, irerecall ko uli ung dream. baka sakaling magkaron ng continuation eh. hehehe. ganun naman minsan diba? :D

p.s. i was a bit confused though. baket mukha ni gerard? e nde naman sya yung crush ko ngayon. si derek ramsay! dapat si derek ung lumabas sa panaginip ko diba? oh, well. it was still a sweet dream, nontheless.